Minnesota author and educator Michael Lee
Lee will be publishing his book, When the Band Played On, this October 8. The book covers the life of Randy Shilts (1951 - 1994), the first openly gay journalist who broke social barriers. Shilts covered the AIDS crisis during a time when most people feared to mention the topic. Lee proves in his new book that Randy Shilts is an important figure that people today should know because of his LGBT and HIV activism that continues to inspire generations after him.
Michael Lee sat down for an interview about his novel. He spoke about the writing process, what inspired him to do this, and what the future holds.
Tell me about When the Band Played On.
When the Band Played On is the first mass market biography of Randy Shilts who was the author of And the Band Played On. It's been the focus of my work for the last decade. It has been a really deep and meaningful project for me as a researcher and a writer, and I hope that comes through to people. I really wanted this to be the very intimate life story of Randy. There's been a lot written about his career. There's been a lot written about his trailblazing journalism as the first openly gay journalist to cover gay issues in the mainstream press. And the Band Played On had a lot of controversy to it as well, but I feel like people haven't necessarily gotten to know the person behind that work and for someone who was as influential as he was in LGBTQ history and especially HIV and AIDS history. I just thought that was a real gap, and I wanted When the Band Played On to fill that gap, and I'm excited for people to read it and understand this person better.
When the Band Played On is based on And the Band Played On (1987) by Randy Stilts, which deals with HIV topics. What got you passionate about the topic HIV?
I came out in the mid 90s, so we did not have at that point the medications to save lives. Those came out shortly after I came out. I remember a time when it was just absolutely deadly to try to exist as a gay man in this society, and in many ways, it still is. That was part of my life experience as a young gay person. Then as I started to move into the community professionally, one of my first professional internships was at an AIDS organization, and that eventually led me to getting hired at the Minnesota AIDS Project almost 21 years ago. A lot of it was just this feeling of connection to my community and seeing how hard people were working and how scared they were. This pandemic that, up until the mid 90s, was completely untreatable and was unfortunately a death sentence for many people who are no longer here. It was always there as a piece of the background. Then I would say it became my professional life in the early 2000s in a way that was really meaningful. A lot of my work was doing outreach and testing in the bars alongside coworkers and many, many volunteers. We were working really hard to try to create a community that embraced health and embraced taking care of each other. Those were hard efforts but rewarding, and that work has always stayed with me, even as I've moved on from that direct work in my life. Writing this book almost felt like a natural extension of that.
Why should our generation and future generations know about Randy Shilts?
I think it's easy to forget that there was a time where even talking about gay issues in the mainstream press was sort of an oddity or a novelty. Before Randy, a lot of the stories that would make it into the major newspapers or major TV programs were very much slanted around the idea of "who are these people and what's wrong with them." Randy was one of the first to really normalize conversations about gay topics in the mainstream press that never questioned whether we as a people were legitimate or illegitimate. It was just accepting that gay life was part of life. It hasn't always been as easy for us to talk about queer topics in mainstream venues. We didn't have social media. We did not have this wide variety of channels that people can really find topics of interest to them or find their own people. He was really pioneering, he was really courageous, and he took a lot of backlash for that at points in his career. I think it's important for generations coming up to understand that what we enjoy now came with a struggle, and it was earned. It was something that we should not take for granted because people like Randy fought for us to have the visibility and the access that we do have. In the course of this, I think he also demonstrated that we can have hard conversations about our community and our community life in ways that don't necessarily tear our community down but make us stronger for having those difficult conversations.
During your research, you interviewed family, friends, acquaintances, and other people who knew Randy Shilts. What are the most surprising things about Randy Shilts that you learned?
I interviewed more than 70 people who knew Randy, and most of those interviews were oral history. They were more detailed, with people giving me more intimate stories of the person that they knew. He was just quite a character. He was very colorful, very fast talking. He had a very unorthodox sense of humor. He could quickly grasp and respond to someone and ask questions in a really smart way to provoke their thinking. In terms of what surprised me about him, [it's] hard to say in terms of surprises. When you're researching someone's life and you start from the very beginning, it's kind of a wide open tableau in terms of finding out what they experienced along the way, who they became friends with, who they offended. I think it was interesting to find out that he was a very conservative republican at the beginning of his life because his family was. He was very active in conservative politics all the way up through high school. I think it was really the [Vietnam] war that started to change his mind, and he became more liberal, more part of the anti war youth movement of the late 60s. I think that really influenced his coming out as a gay person, which he did for the time quite early. He was only 20 when he came out to a room full of his college classmates, and that was a remarkable breakthrough for him. One thing that's remarkable is once he came out of the closet, he never went back in. He really devoted himself, even when he graduated from college and was looking for jobs in journalism, to being an openly gay journalist. He got turned down by a lot of newspapers because of that, even though he was an award winning student journalist, but he was determined from about the end of his college career onwards that he was only going to be a journalist. He was only going to write, and he was going to be open about writing about gay issues. Even though his career suffered for that in the short term, I think it's really amazing that he made that decision to not go back in the closet to try to establish his career. He was bold and upfront about being who he was on every resume he sent out to every potential employer when he was a college graduate. I just think that that kind of courage and confidence for that time is really remarkable.
Tell me about the writing process of When the Band Played On.
It was long, and it took a lot of sitting with some very in depth material. The thing about writing a biography, it's nonfiction, which means every fact has to be accurate. You have to have a source for it. You have to be able to justify the conclusions that you draw, and yet you still have to do it in a way that draws people in and gives them an emotional connection to the text. The writing process for me was a lot of taking the factual evidence and turning it into something that I would enjoy reading. So it reads more like a novel in a lot of ways. It does require some creativity, some imagination in terms of setting a good scene but then also leaning into the material that people gave me, and that Randy left behind in his papers. It was very much a process of sewing together the factual evidence, all of that documentation, into something that people could sit down and read and find interesting and exciting so that it has that emotional component to it as well. It took a long time. I started writing in 2016, which was a couple of years after I first started the research. I finished it in early 2022. That was a good six year period of just writing a manuscript, while I was also working as a part time professor and a grant writer. You have to pay the bills too. It was a very intensive process of sitting with that material, trying to write it in a voice that I thought was true to Randy as well as myself, and then lots of editing and revising along the way. It was a very long intensive process.
Many times I've come across people who've asked who I am writing about, and they don't recognize the name Randy Shilts. When I say And the Band Played On to a certain age or older, let's say 40 or older, they have this immediate recognition. Oftentimes those people will start telling me a story about someone they lost from the AIDS epidemic. Something I came to realize from those conversations was that for them, And the Band Played On was a way of making sense of their own grief, of their own loss of a loved one in their life, given how much stigma and shame have been associated with HIV. Over the years, it gave them a way to think about their loved one in terms of the injustice they experienced and not just the shame around sexuality or using injection drugs or things like that. It was a touchstone for them to someone who they still held in their own hearts. When they connected back to And the Band Played On, it was through the memory of their own loved ones. That was really powerful. The number of times people would tell me those kinds of stories still stays with me today.
What are the biggest takeaways that you most hope for from readers after reading the book?
One I think is really connecting with just the intensity of the early years of the HIV/ AIDS pandemic and the amount of pressure that someone like Randy Shilts faced in terms of dealing with it as one of the only reporters covering it full time and doing more than just writing the medical side of AIDS, but also the human interest and the political side. It was quite a bit of pressure on him, and he didn't get everything right, but he was doing it because he was so worried about the extinction of our community. That's actually a phrase that he used in a number of his interviews, our biological extinction. He was terrified of that. I think that in this day and age with the quality of medications that we have with U=U, with PrEP and all sorts of prevention options, we tend to forget just how absolutely terrifying that was for people at the time, and Randy was right at the center of that. People who take a positive view of him [versus] people who take a more critical view, I think there's room for everyone to sort of take a look and see what he was doing was under enormous pressure. Yet somehow, he managed to rise above it and create a work of literature that to this day still moves people around the world. It's very important for people to understand that story and how hard he fought to tell how the politics were played, and how they kept the government from responding to AIDS sooner than they did. He was really determined to show just how many lives were lost because of the political games that were being played.
Randy Shilts wrote the book And the Band Played On, which was published in 1987. What do you like most about the book, and what's the most valuable thing you learned from it?
I've gotten to know that book quite well, and what's been interesting for me has been to see just how deeply personal the relationships were that Randy had with many of the sources in it and many of the characters in And the Band Played On. He really connected a lot of different systems that you wouldn't see having connections to each other from the federal level all the way down to the City of San Francisco and City of New York. He did a remarkable job of weaving together all these threads to create a kind of tapestry in the response to AIDS and showing how there were people all across the country really worried about it who were being blocked by systems for reasons that just did not make good sense unless you looked at it through a political lens.
I think he gets the politics right for the time, which was unfortunate in that there was so much embarrassment around even talking about sexuality, talking about the ways that HIV was being transmitted, that the information that was being provided by the government was very incomplete, and that was scaring people quite badly. I think Randy did a real service.
And the Band Played On was adapted into a movie in 1993, which starred Matthew Modine and Ian Mckellen in it. If your book When the Band Played On is to be adapted into a movie, what would you most hope for it like? What would it be about? Who would direct it? Who would play the people? Et cetera.
In terms of who would direct it, someone who did a phenomenal job with Harvey Milk's story was Gus Van Sant with the movie Milk, and I think that he would do a wonderful job with the material in this. I'm really terrible at knowing the names of up and coming actors and things like that. Obviously, I'd want it to be about Randy. But another star of And the Band Played On was Lily Tomlin, who played Dr. Selma Dritz, who was San Francisco’s Director of Epidemiology. She was well known among the gay community there because she was the one who always tracked down infectious diseases when they were spreading. Lily Tomlin played her quite well in the movie. The only thing was that Selma Dritz at the time was close to retirement age. Lily was quite a bit younger when she played Selma in the movie. It would make my heart overwhelmed with joy if there is a film adaptation of When the Band Played On. I would love to see Lily Tomlin come back and play Dr. Selma Dritz because she has some very, very important scenes in my book. And the Band Played On doesn't really detail just how close of a friendship she had with Randy. She even described it in one of her letters as being almost maternal. I would be overwhelmed with joy if Lily Tomlin came back to play that role in the movie of Randy's life because I just think that connection would be so meaningful, and we all love Lily Tomlin.
Is there anything else you want to add?
I hope people will read it and take it with an open mind and an open heart. This is a story where I really leaned into Randy's lived experience and the emotions of what he went through, and I hope people will see the opportunity to put themselves in his shoes and understand what life must have been like for him. He had a really tough life growing up with his family. He dealt with a mother who drank heavily and had quite a violent temper. He left at 18 and moved from Illinois all the way across the country, came out on the west coast, and went on this journey that no one had really been on before, in terms of taking on the journalistic profession and being an out proud openly gay person leading the charge for our stories being told just as part of everyday American life, just like everybody else's. I hope people will go on that adventure with him because it's certainly been an adventure for me, and I'm just really excited for people to share that.
HUMP! Film Festival Part 2 was held at Parkway Theater on September 21, 2024.
HUMP! Film Festival showcases a series of short porn films while promoting sex positivity. The atmosphere provides audiences a sense of when porn ruled the world in the 1970s. This type of atmosphere ranges from films having a storyline to being memorable to being campy. This year's part 2 line-up includes various fantasies such as fetishes, kink, romance, message driven, and more.
The Pizza Guy explores a pizza delivery guy who fantasizes about a hot night with his customer. Heavy Load utilizes Salvador Dali's artistic style of overlays and abstract images of two men taking advantage of being alone in the back of a moving truck. Cumline tells a story of a Hollywood legend who declares his coming out by making a sexy TikTok style video. Stay proves that two people in a long term relationship can still use "my man was horny" as an excuse to be late for work.
The Cumcubus includes one of a few people who knows how to stop the 1,000-year-old-plus cumcubus who uses his bottoming powers to kill his victims. Veronica exhibits two women who film a porn film while a monster either tries to stop them or join them. Spacetrip Do You Wanna is a campy message driven music video about consent. Banana is an animated short about a man who judges people frequently but finds himself judged by everybody. Pizza Sluts incorporates humor as one woman receives a pizza slut as a gift from her lover.
AnderSCENE's HUMP! Film Festival 2024 Best of Show:
HUMP! Film Festival Part 2:
Best Picture: Banana
Best Director: Veronica
Best Performance: Stay
Best Screenplay: Spacetrip Do You Wanna
Best Editing: Spacetrip Do You Wanna
Best Cinematography: The Pizza Guy
Best Music: Spacetrip Do You Wanna
Best Non-LGBT Picture: Family Affair
To see the HUMP! Film Festival Part 1 winners, scroll down to the June 19, 2024 publishing of the review. It includes an interview with founder Dan Savage.
HUMP! Film Festival Parts 1 & 2 Combined:
(* - from part 1; **- from part 2)
Best Picture: Dirty Old Man*
Best Director: Dirty Old Man*
Best Performance: Happy G Day*
Best Screenplay: Spacetrip Do You Wanna**
Best Editing: Transit*
Best Cinematography: The Pizza Guy**
Best Music: Happy G Day*
Best Non-LGBT Picture: Family Affair**
Honorable Mention: Human Chandelier*
If you didn't catch parts 1 or 2 at Parkway Theater, you can still stream them here: https://www.humpfilmfest.com/streaming-library
Check out the trailer for HUMP! Film Festival Part 2 here: https://vimeo.com/957749685/7b1806c4de
Next year is the 20th anniversary of HUMP! Film Festival! Be on the lookout for show dates.
Any Other Way: The Jackie Shane Story
Any Other Way: The Jackie Shane Story debuted at SXSW (South by Southwest) Film Festival on March 9, 2024. Since then, it has achieved tremendous success in the film festival circuit, most notably the Out in the Silence Award win from Frameline International LGBTQ+ Film Festival! Any Other Way: The Jackie Shane Story is a documentary that covers the life of Jackie Shane, an R&B singer and a pioneer transgender figure who rose to fame in the early 1960s. She was best known for her song Any Other Way, which reached #124 on the Billboard Bubbling Under Chart in 1962. She opened up for Etta James, The Temptations, Marvin Gaye, and other legendary musicians. Shane disappeared from the limelight in 1971.
Tell me about Any Other Way: The Jackie Shane Story.
Any Other Way is about an incredible R&B soul singer named Jackie Shane, who escaped Jim Crow South and moved to Canada where she released chart topping records, before disappearing for 45 years. Most people thought she was dead but in 2016 she resurfaced with a Grammy nomination for the re-issue of her album "Jackie Shane Live". Jackie was living in Nashville away from the spotlight since leaving the stage in 1971, and not even her living relatives knew. This film tells the story of her life using her personal archive, rotoscope animation and stories Jackie told on never before heard recorded conversations.
What should audiences expect from seeing this documentary?
They should expect a film that invites them into a story of a woman who was not only incredibly talented, but who lived her truth authentically. Jackie was a transwoman, performing on stage in the 1960s and 70s, and although little was understood of the trans experience back then, she didn't let that stop her from pursuing her dream of being on the stage. Audiences can expect to be moved, inspired and entertained by Jackie's music, her humour and her wit.
Your documentary has been selected for numerous film festivals such as SXSW and SF at Frameline, some leading to award wins. How does it feel to achieve the success?
It feels amazing to have the film recognized at this level. It took a lot of heart and passion for us to create, as well as a diligent dedication to bringing Jackie to life, since she sadly passed before this film was completed, so it's wonderful that it's been so well received. It shows that stories like hers are needed now more than ever.
Why do you believe it’s important for people to know Jackie Shane’s story?
So many stories are lost to history for many different reasons. Due to the intersections of sexism, transphobia and racism, stories like Jackie's rarely see the light of day. If it was not for this film, few would remember the impact Jackie had on music and culture. It's also important for people to see that trans people are more than their gender identities, as so much of today's media see's the trans-experience as one dimensional.
What about Jackie Shane's story interests you most?
The two most interesting parts to us are, one, that she was making music like this in Toronto, when the Folk scene was going strong she was rocking up the clubs in the downtown core. And despite the club scene being dangerous and full of gangsters, she managed to survive (I mean she was only kidnapped once or twice!). Secondly, her family's story is a crucial part of this film, they didn't know Jackie existed until after her death, and to see them come together and support her legacy has been a great journey to be a part of.
What do you most hope that audiences get out of watching this documentary?
Some new music to love in listening to Jackie's songs and inspired to live their truth as well.
What was the most rewarding part of making this documentary, and what was the most challenging part?
One of the most rewarding things has been having audience members tell us they felt like they had just seen her on stage, felt her presence. We had only one piece of recorded footage to achieve this so that's been incredibly rewarding as it was important people felt connected to her. The most challenging was deciding which parts of Jackie's life to include in the film and sift through nearly 100 hours of recorded phone calls. There was a lot of gold that never made it into the film but every line we picked has a very specific purpose.
Zip Zap Circus: MOYA will be playing at Children's Theatre Company from Sep 12 - Oct 20, 2024.
It includes exciting dance and acrobatic routines that are accompanied by South African music. It's great for all ages. Masizakhe Kovi took time out of his busy schedule to share with us about MOYA, what he loves about acting, and his future in acting.
Tell me about MOYA.
MOYA was created to give local talent a South African circus ring in which to not only stretch their talents and pursue their dreams, but also to create shows that celebrate the land we call home.
What turned you on to accepting the role in MOYA?
I’ve always wanted to be a professional circus performer, so it was a nice opportunity for me to be part of MOYA cast and perform around the world with MOYA.
What should audiences expect from watching MOYA?
I can’t wait for the audience to experience our South African vibe, our culture, our dance, and our music in the production. They're gonna love it!
What's your favorite routine and song in MOYA and why?
My favourite routine is my Act (Handstand Act) and my song that I use for my Act; it tells a story that really relates to the show. It’s a very nice song.
What's your best memory of rehearsing MOYA?
My best memory is when we were rehearsing for another show in Mauritius. I remember I was so excited, because it was gonna be my first time touring with MOYA outside South Africa.
How familiar were you with South African music and dance compared to now?
South African music is, and will always be, the banger. Our music makes people happy, and surely people dance when they listen to our music.
You've been acting since age 9. What do you love most about acting?
I love acting because it shows the real me, and when I’m on stage performing, I become myself. That’s what I want people to see. I really love performing.
Of all that you haven't done yet in the entertainment industry, what do you most want to do
I would like to experience and perform in Vegas. That would be so cool.
Is there anything else you want to add?
I’m looking forward to traveling to America for the first time. It's gonna be an amazing experience. I can’t wait.
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The 40th anniversary of Purple Rain was celebrated at Target Center on July 27. This was no ordinary movie screening. It was a celebration!
The film was screened in front of thousands of attendees. Though the screening was hosted in an auditorium, it felt like an intimate setting and a Prince concert simultaneously. This combination is determined by everyone supporting one another while celebrating Purple Rain, Prince’s life, and his legacy.
Prince’s spirit felt present. Audience members were dancing to his music, waving their phones during Purple Rain song, and applauding after every song. Some individuals even stood up and danced while others cheered. Other Prince classics in the movie include When Doves Cry, Take Me With U, and I Would Die 4 U. Other tunes include Jungle Love by Morris Day and The Time and Sex Shooter by Appolonia 6.
After the screening, the one who played the woman thrown in a trash can spoke on stage. Then a rendition of Purple Rain was performed by three time Grammy award winner Jamaris. Then Prince was inducted into the Songwriters Hall of Fame. Prince’s half sister Sharon Nelson accepted it in his behalf. Then a VIP ceremony was held.
This event proves that Purple Rain still holds a strong influence on people 40 years later. Overall, people have still not forgotten Prince.
Queen Tut is an inspiring comedy that tells the story of Nabil, a newly Egyptian immigrant who recently moved to Toronto.
Nabil familiarizes himself with the Toronto LGBT community as he befriends a trans elder Malibu (played by Alexandra Billings) who inspires him to explore drag. Meanwhile, he joins forces with Malibu and the LGBT community to save a local historic LGBT bar from being demolished.
Ryan Ali, who plays Nabil, shares his moments on the set of Queen Tut, the film's success, and his future in acting.
Queen Tut has been nominated for four Canadian Screen Awards. What was your initial reaction when you found out about the nominations?
I was so thrilled!!! The Canadian Screen Awards are the equivalent of a Canadian Oscars. It is a tremendous feat and I think, most of all, it made me excited at the prospect that more people would hear about our movie and wanna watch it!
Also, the fact that this is Alexandra Billings’ first solo acting nomination is unbelievable, but I’m so glad she was finally recognized for her work, and for such a special film. Big shoutout to our music team spearheaded by Suad Bushnaq for landing THREE much, much deserved nominations! They were all incredible to work with.
Queen Tut has been screened at numerous festivals such as OUTshine LGBTQ+ Film Festival, and Chicago LGBTQ+ International Film Festival. How does it feel knowing that the film has achieved this success?
It feels so rewarding to know that our movie has found this amount of success, and that it got to be seen by so many people all around the world! When you sign on to a movie like this, you’re just trying to do work that you’ll be proud of and that aligns with your creative vision and that of the director’s. The fact that it was received so well, I’m just so grateful for that.
What should audiences expect from watching Queen Tut?
A beautiful emotional journey accompanied by a lot of laughter. I think audiences really got attached to all our unique characters very quickly and it makes you really root for them and empathize with all of them.
What's your most memorable audience reaction?
I got to watch the movie with an audience a few times, and every time, it really makes me so happy to hear all the audible reactions from audiences. People were “ooh”-ing and “aaah”-ing throughout the film. There was a lot laughing and some sniffled crying too haha. I think that’s my favorite part of watching a movie with an audience — I get to experience it with fresh eyes and see it through other people.
What was your most memorable experience on the set of Queen Tut?
There’s a scene in the movie where I get to walk down the street in a big beautiful green dress. It’s one of the busiest intersections in all of Toronto, right by the Royal Ontario Museum. That’s probably one of my favorite memories ever! In my entire life. There was such a beautiful duality to it, where I myself felt safe and joyful and playful, surrounded by a crew and the team, and then get back into character where he felt a little scared and alone.
What do you love most about the film?
I love that the film became such a platform for so many queer artists to have and share their authentic voices, especially the trailblazer that is Alexandra Billings. We were so lucky to have her on this production, and my favorite part of the movie is the lessons she shares throughout. A lot of which were improvised and based on hers and her community’s own experiences.
What and/ or who mostly inspired your performance as Nabil?
I genuinely dedicated this film to my 18 year old self, who moved to Canada just like Nabil and struggled a bit to fit in and find his way. That’s really who inspired me the most and what fueled the drive to be so committed to telling this story and putting out my best work to date.
What's next?
I’ve been really enjoying my time in Los Angeles and getting to know the creative community out here. It feels like a whole new world bound with possibilities and I can’t wait to share some exciting new projects soon!
Anything else you want to add?
Find me on Instagram @ryanali23 and let’s connect!
Rock legend Melissa Etheridge talked about her newest venture: her docuseries Melissa Etheridge: I'm Not Broken and the live album that accompanies it! #I'mNotBroken
Melissa Etheridge: I'm Not Broken debuted at Tribeca Film Festival on June 14. In the docuseries, Melissa Etheridge performed at Topeka Correctional Facility where she used music to inspire women to find their path of healing and recovery. Etheridge discussed various topics such as addiction, trauma, and grieving. In this interview, she talks about Melissa Etheridge: I'm Not Broken, what inspired her to do this, and what she learned from this journey. And! She'll be performing in Minnesota on August 1.
Tell me about how Melissa Etheridge: I'm Not Broken came to be.
I'm Not Broken is the project that came out of my desire to do a concert at a women's penitentiary in Kansas. It took many years to get the permissions and to set up all of everything that it takes to get into a prison. And the song Burning Woman is from my experience of meeting the residences and experiencing them and their stories.
You mentioned in the docuseries that when you were a child, Johnny Cash performed in Leavenworth Federal Penitentiary, two blocks from where you live. What was it about his performance that inspired you to make this film?
I was only seven years old when Johnny Cash came to town. The fact that the prison got to see the performance, but the town did not and not even Kansas City, which was the closest large city. No one got to see Johnny Cash but the prisoners. This, to my young seven year old mind, cemented the idea that prisons were a place of great entertainment [chuckles]. Well, a few years later, I actually went into the prison with some local talent, a variety show that went into these prisons, and performed, and the experience was exhilarating. They were appreciative, they were very loud and demonstrative, and it really inspired me to want to perform for people who don't usually get entertainment in their day to day lives.
What's the most valuable thing you learned from this experience?
The most valuable thing is never to assume. I tried not to assume what my experience would be going into TCF [Topeka Correctional Facility] and what it would be on stage. And this exceeded all my expectations. And I also have my own unconscious assumptions about what the residents would be like. And I was surprised by how much each of them were like regular everyday people that I knew.
One quote that stands out for me is, "You can't save them, but you can inspire them." How do you hope that Melissa Etheridge: I'm Not Broken inspires audiences?
It is all about inspiration. I hope that people can see this film and feel the gravity of the situation and the need for change in our prisons, in our penitentiaries, in our correctional facilities and the need to understand that most of the incarcerated people have emotional issues dealing from trauma and how we can help inspire people to get back. So, not only inspire the audiences with the gravity but also lifting them up and showing that there's hope that people can be lightened up, that they can be inspired to look to the future.
You mentioned in the docuseries that half the women who are incarcerated are recovering from addiction. What do you think can be done to help those struggling?
I think more understanding about what addiction is, why it is, where addiction comes from, the root trauma in so many of us that causes the struggling and the use of drugs to quiet the trauma. If we can understand more about the trauma, then we can begin to take these people out of prison that just need that sort of emotional help.
Melissa Etheridge: I'm Not Broken will be accompanied by a live album. How did you decide on the setlist?
That was probably my favorite part of it, was making the setlist. I wanted to do the hit songs that they would know so that that would be fun for them to hear me perform my hit songs. So that was about four or five of the songs. But the other songs were specifically curated to be able to speak about trauma, to be able to speak about regret, to be able to speak about pain and desire, and the things that these songs specifically speak about so that I could touch on them when I was speaking to the audience and relating with them. Addiction. That's what the other songs [are]. They're more deep tracks. They weren't necessarily hit songs, but I thought that they would really fit what I was trying to give to the audience.
Please hashtag #I'mNotBroken on social media.
Melissa Etheridge: I'm Not Broken (Live from Topeka Correctional Facility) will be released to streaming on July 9th and available on physical July 12th. You can purchase it here.
Melissa Etheridge will perform with Jewel at The Ledge Amphitheater at Waite Park, MN on August 1 at 7:00 PM. Tickets can be purchased here.
Paul and Trisha: The Art of Fluidity tells the story of legendary surreal artists Paul Whitehead and Trisha van Cleef who share one genderfluid body.
Paul and Trisha have designed works for artists such as Genesis, Creedence Clearwater Revival, and... drumroll... The Beatles. Paul and Trisha talk about their new documentary Paul and Trisha: The Art of Fluidity. This new film covers their adventures, careers, and challenges.
Tell me about the new documentary Paul and Trisha: The Art of Fluidity.
The movie didn’t start out as a full-length feature. Before Covid I was doing a series of “One man – One woman” pop up art shows in vacant retail spaces and I decided that we needed a short film that would tell viewers about the show and have a short history of my career. The producer of the art shows, Adam Fisk’s girlfriend Fia Perera, is a filmmaker and Adam hired her to direct this short film for the art shows. After a couple of interviews it became apparent that this had the potential to be much more than just a short film – Fia told Adam this and he told us to keep shooting. As Fia and I worked together I felt more and more comfortable with her, because her questions were sensitive and insightful and they gave me the opportunity to explain my motives, demonstrate my creative process and let people into my life. The result is something that I’m very proud of, it's a very honest portrayal of me and the way I live.
What do you hope most that audiences learn from watching the documentary?
As I said it’s first and foremost a glimpse inside someone’s life, in this case a transgender artist, with an already established reputation as a man, making original art as a woman. This is maybe a challenging concept for lots of people to wrap their heads around, but to me? It’s just my life. I function quite comfortably in the world as both a man and a woman and I make two completely different kinds of art. I hope that people who don’t know about such things or have a preconceived idea of what that’s about, discover, through my revelations, a new and positive way of looking at it. I hope that people who don’t know about or understand what it’s like to make your living purely from your creativity will come away with a new understanding of what that’s all about, both its joys and its challenges.
What was the most rewarding part of making the documentary?
I think the most rewarding part for me was knowing that maybe this documentary could help someone out there that is struggling with their gender identity and give them hope and encourage them to be brave, be themselves and live their lives openly and with honesty. In the film I tell about the first time I had a “One Man – One Woman” art show and I was struggling over who or who not to invite to the opening. A trans friend told me to be brave and invite EVERYONE on my mailing list because there was no down side! She told me that any friends who disowned me, because of my revelation, were not really true friends in the 1st place and that I would have a great feeling of liberation - I might even find a totally new circle of friends. She was absolutely right.
I have also had some really profound and touching Q & A sessions after we’ve showed the film at film festivals. Several people came out to me and told me they felt a huge burden taken off their shoulders. A couple of parents, with trans kids, thanked me sincerely for de-mystifying the whole gender issue & for helping them to understand what is REALLY going on without resorting to extreme or provocative behavior, which is often the case when it comes to discussing transgender issues.
The documentary has received rave reviews from critics. It has been screened in numerous film festivals such as Cinequest Film Festival and Santa Fe Film Festival? What does it feel like knowing that it's been so successful?
It’s a great feeling because when you create something it’s always a gamble whether it’s going to be accepted and understood or not, I know this from my experience being an artist for the past 50 years, but this was a whole new experience for me. We all learned a lot about the film business along the way, particularly by screening the documentary at Film Festivals. We weren’t sure what to expect but in the end I think the quality of the film, the excellent editing and the honest way my story is told all contributed to its success, I also think the timing is just right. There are a lot of documentaries made every year (over 5000 worldwide I’ve been told) so to be noticed and appreciated amongst that volume of work and competition is quite gratifying.
What audience reaction stands out the most from the documentary?
As I said earlier we have had some really amazing Q & A sessions. The common theme seems to be “Thank you for the sane and non-confrontational way that you tell your story!” There is a lot of hateful, sensational and political diatribe around the transgender issue these days and I didn’t want to add to that. One of the spiritual principles that I live by is not to be “preachy” or rigid when it comes to other’s beliefs – I also believe the best way to convince anyone of your point of view and your sincerity is by the way that you live your life day by day. Fia did an excellent and very entertaining job showing the unique and thought provoking way that I live my life.
Do you believe your artistic style changed since coming out as genderfluid? If so, how?
Not really because that has always been an ever changing and exploratory part of my creative process, the interesting thing for me is that it’s put me in a whole new artistic category and one that I didn’t even realize I was part of. I realize now that I was “trans” before I even knew it. I remember in the 60’s I was confused and a little bothered by my desire to “dress up” and create a female character, I enjoyed the buzz from what I saw in the mirror but thought to myself that it was strange because I thought I was the only one doing it. After going to the library and finding the psychology books I discovered that I was a transvestite, that I was not alone and probably suffered from what they call gender dysphoria. This was OK in terms of putting the whole thing in perspective but I didn’t see anything of myself in the extreme psychological cases described in the psyche books because to me it was just part of my creative life, I wasn’t beating myself up over it and, most of all, I didn’t have any guilt. I was OK going out in public and I had a small circle of trans friends that I could relate to and share experiences with, that kept me sane and on track. Around 2000, when I 1st heard the term “transgender”, it was an epiphany for me. “I’m one of those,” I thought to myself. It was like the world had caught up with me and given the lifestyle a more positive and less judgmental term to describe it. Now, of course, it’s become mainstream and, in a lot of cases, something to celebrate.
You've made art work for legends such as John Lennon, Genesis, Creedence Clearwater Revival, and Peter Hammill. What's it like knowing that you've worked with so many legends?
Well to me it was just the way my life enfolded, it was just a case of being in the right place at the right time, I was very lucky to work with such talented & creative people. It definitely upped my game and I discovered that I was a very good collaborator. I produced some memorable record covers by introducing my visual skills and my knowledge of the art world to musicians, it was a very satisfying cross fertilization of two artistic disciplines and we learned a lot from each other along the way.
What do you love most about being an artist?
I always say that I have the best “job” in the world. Choosing artist as your profession gives you incredible freedom because, historically, there are no boundaries when it comes to how you express yourself. I paint and sculpt, I write novels and screenplays and make music and I create Trisha. (as an artist) I find that if you approach any creative process, as an artist, people always expect the result to be original and thought provoking. I try to never let them down. Artists have always been like the canary in the coalmine, our job is to go just a little ahead of the crowd and sniff the air to see if it’s safe ahead. It’s not always safe of course and historically there have been some casualties along the way. I think some of the smartest people I have ever met in my life have been artists. Maybe I’m prejudiced but I find artists are able to move freely and mix easily in any level of society, they adapt and embrace any artistic discipline that they think they can use to get their message across and very often they improve and even expand it.
What does the future hold for you?
What a great question. I see my life as a constantly unfolding miracle and the people I meet and the opportunities that come to me as a never ending series of challenges and tests to be evaluated and assessed by me for their potential to enrich my life. This documentary is such a case. My life and my “ life message” is now out there, big time, for the world to evaluate. Who knows what opportunities and new experiences that will lead to? All I can say is, “I’m ready, bring it on.”
Anything else you want to add?
Be yourself and be brave, there is and will only ever be one YOU. Celebrate your individuality in whatever field you operate, don’t create conflict and most of all – be honest with yourself and the world.
Paul and Trisha: The Art of Fluidity will be available on iTunes/ AppleTV on July 9.
Children's Theatre Company has a new artistic director!
Artistic Director Rick Dildine described what he loves about theater and what to expect from Children's Theatre Company.
Congratulations on your new position as Artistic Director of Children's Theatre Company! What are you most looking forward to in this position?
I’m most looking forward to getting to work for and with young people. For some time I’ve felt like there’s not a more noble task than creating something for a young person. I believe this work for multi-generational audiences is most important for the future of the arts and our communities.
You were previously Artistic Director of Shakespeare Festival St. Louis from 2009-2017 and Alabama Shakespeare Festival from 2017-2024. What are the most valuable skills you learned that you can apply at Children's Theatre Company?
I want kids to know that it’s okay to have big thoughts and complex feelings. Stories and live theatre are a great way to articulate and understand better about who we are and aspire to become. I’m a director who listens to the room and the environment and creates in response to what I hear.
What are your goals as the Artistic Director within the next five years?
I love the CTC I see today and want to build on the bright spots. I want to continue CTC’s history of making new work that centers young people; boundary pushing, rigorous work. I think it’s critical that we are producing world premieres each season. I hope to find new ways of creating community within the theater and keeping the theater a place where real conversations happen. Minneapolis and CTC are perfect for launching Broadway-bound shows, and I aspire to take our work beyond Minnesota through streaming and touring.
What do you love most about theater?
I love the magic of the unexpected. Whether that magic comes from language or design, I love being surprised. I go to the theater because I want to connect. Theater is a form of meditation for me; a place where I go to be moved, entertained, and connect with a world bigger than myself.
What initially made you fall in love with theater?
I fell in love with theater because of the people. Theatre is not an art form done in isolation. We are drawn to it because we want to give something away. For as long as I can remember, I have been a storyteller. The ritual of coming together as an ensemble in front of an audience to tell a story is something we’ve done for thousands of years. This art form still brings people together, and I love that.
Who are your favorite people with whom you've collaborated?
I am a product of the company model, so I appreciate the strength found in an ensemble of artists who work together consistently. I want to collaborate with actors who have points of view and bring their lived experiences to roles. I want to work with designers who push the boundaries of space and are also great dramaturgs. I work diligently to create a process and rehearsal room where everyone feels safe and comfortable bringing their whole selves.
What's the most memorable production in which you've been involved?
I’m drawn to heightened texts, ensemble-driven stories, unexpected places, and live music. I gravitate to big ideas in dynamic configurations. If I can put music into a show, I will. If he can find a way to transform a space, I will. If there’s a way to surprise an audience by breaking a rule, I most definitely will. If it’s epic, I'm all in. I am often asked to direct Shakespeare, Moliere, musicals, and Southern-based plays. All of these require an understanding of pace, pitch, language, movement, and a heightened emotional state for actors.
What productions does Children's Theatre Company have lined up?
Please visit https://childrenstheatre.org/shows-and-tickets/2024-2025-season/ for full info on the 2024-2025 Season.
Anything else you want to add?
My husband Stephen and I are very much looking forward to joining the community.
HUMP! Film Festival, founded and directed by Dan Savage, returned to Minneapolis for its 19th year as a festival, 10th in Minneapolis, with more exciting pleasures!
Part 1 of 2 played at Parkway Theater on June 1. It had a packed house full of solos, couples, thruples, and people who were curious.
I had the pleasure of interviewing founder/ director Dan Savage about the HUMP! Film Festival. You may know him from his podcast Savage Love and his organization It Gets Better. He discussed how it was founded, what to expect, and how to submit to next year's festival. HUMP! Film Festival gives audiences the experience of a 70s porn theater, when porn ruled the world. But with a modern twist. Its lineup celebrates various sexual orientations, gender identities, sexual pleasures, body shapes, and ages. All of them celebrate sex positivity.
Tell me about the HUMP! Film Festival.
HUMP! is an amateur porn film festival — but our definition of “porn” is very broad (porn is very subjective!), as is our definition of “amateur” (professional filmmakers have entered the festival). The films can’t be longer than five minutes, and we have three “nos”: no poop, no minors, no animals. Otherwise, anything goes: hardcore, softcore, erotica, animation, musical, documentaries, films shot by professional film crews, films created by total amateurs using their cell phones. What surprises people about HUMP! is how funny many of the films are and how diverse the creators are. You can never predict what or who you’ll see next at HUMP!
How do you juggle among Savage Love, It Gets Better, the festival, and your other endeavors?
I drink a lot of strong black tea and I have a lot of help — Nancy Hartunian produces the Savage Lovecast and does most of the heavy lifting there, and Tracey Cataldo produces the HUMP! Film Festival. I’m not organizationally involved with It Gets Better anymore — I’m an ideas guy, not a running-the-show guy!
What gave birth to the festival?
Amateur porn was a big porn genre back when VHS tapes and home camcorders were new technologies. We used to joke — me and a coworker at the paper — that we should announce a film festival for amateur porn just to see what came in. If we got enough submissions, we would rent a theater and screen them and see if anyone would actually show up to watch porn the way their grandparents used to — sitting next to strangers in a dark theater. We weren’t convinced anyone would submit or actually show up to watch… and here we are, almost 20 years, thousands of submissions, and hundreds of thousands of audience members later!
The HUMP! Film Festival is celebrating its 20th anniversary next year. Will there be any special events to celebrate? Will the festival do anything to celebrate?
There will be cake. Any excuse for cake.
You’re currently touring with part one of the festival. Next up will be part two. How will part two be different from part one?
HUMP! Part Two features just as many great, funny, short films as HUMP! Part One — the only difference between the two festivals this year is that all the films are different. You’ll see some things in Part Two you didn’t see in Part One — some kinks, some positions, some animation, some jokes — but both shows are equally entertaining and sexy.
Why two parts?
When we first started the festival we would get dozens of submissions. Now we get hundreds. But to keep the show to a 90-minute running time, we could only show — tops — 25 of the films. This meant we were cutting films for time that were really great and deserved to be in HUMP! that we knew our audiences would love. So, we decided this year to bring more of these great films to HUMP! audiences by having two tours!
How can someone submit a video to the festival?
Everything you need to know about getting a film into a HUMP can be found at humpfilmfest.com/submit! There’s no charge to enter HUMP! and every filmmaker whose movie gets into the festival gets a cut of every ticket sold. Last year each filmmaker got a check for more than $3,000!
What types of submissions are you accepting?
A successful HUMP! submission can be about anything — if you think it’s hot, if it turns you on, get it on film and send it in! It’s a good idea for people who want to submit something to see HUMP! — which can be seen in a theater or screen online — to get an idea of what HUMP! audiences really respond to.
What submissions will be guaranteed to be rejected?
BDSM and kink are always welcome at HUMP! — but films that are cruel, films that set out to mock or belittle someone or something people find sexy, never get into HUMP! We look for films that are joyful and smart and personal.
What do you hope audiences get out of watching the HUMP! Film Festival?
We all hope that people see that underneath the thing layer of differences that we're told define a big part of who we are — our sexual orientations, our gender identities, our kinks, our relationships — there’s so much that we have in common, things like lust, love, joy, senses of humor, vulnerability, and a need to be seen.
What are some of the most memorable audience reactions through the years?
There’s nothing like watching an audience cheer for a film they loved — particularly when the film was made by someone who may have been shamed or faced stigma or rejection because of the thing they put up there on the screen. I love seeing vanilla people cheering for kink films (and vice-versa), cis people cheering for trans films (and vice-versa), gay boys cheering for cunnilingus, straight boys cheering for boys who can deep throat and on and on!
What do you love most about your job?
I love HUMP! Jury Day most — when we get together to watch all of the submissions. It’s a long day — it’s a long few days — but it’s really fun!
What’s the most valuable thing about sex culture that you’ve learned from the festival through the years?
People obsess about being “normal” and worry about the ways in which they’re not. But when it comes to human sexuality — as you can see at HUMP! — variance is truly the norm.
Anything else you want to add?
Come see the show!
AnderSCENE's Best in LGBT Show:
Best Picture: 3rd: Not Safe For Church, 2nd: Transit, 1st: Dirty Old Man
Best Director: Dirty Old Man
Best Performance: Happy G Day
Best Screenplay: Not Safe For Church
Best Editing: Transit
Best Cinematography: The Kettle
Best Music: Happy G Day
Best Non-LGBT Picture: Crashpad's Quickie: Zuri Love & Knotty Rell
Tickets for Part 2 go on sale on July 1. The fun will happen at Parkway Theater on September 21.
Flip the Script is showing four exciting LGBT films to help you celebrate Pride Month!
Directors Matthew Berg and Victoria Carpenter took the time out of their busy schedules to share their plans for Pride Month, how to submit a film to their festival, and the importance of LGBT films. Their lineup for Pride Month includes comedy, romance, drama, and documentary.
What are you most excited about during Pride Month?
Matthew Berg (he/him): Pride Month brings the opportunity to celebrate and gather with the Queer community, and its allies, at a more heightened level than the rest of the year, which is very energizing for me. We’re able to hold multiple film screenings during the month, host events with partners, and talk with folks during our two days at Pride in the Park.
Victoria Carpenter (any pronouns): One of my favorite parts of Pride Month is seeing folks celebrating the Queer community that don’t normally get the time to connect and celebrate. Living in the Metro area, sometimes it’s easy to forget what beautiful opportunities we have as far as access goes.
Tell me about Flip the Script.
Flip the Script is the Twin Cities based Queer film organization with a mission to remove barriers to accessing Queer movies! We believe representation should be accessible for all and that financial means should never keep filmmakers from submitting their films to our festival, or audience members from participating in our programming.
Providing access to subsidized FREE tickets to the festival, and liberally waiving submissions fees, to everyone, is the cornerstone of our organization and supported by donations made through our fiscal sponsorship with Springboard for the Arts.
Flip the Script will again be hosting its Pride series this June. What movies are being screened during this film series?
This year we will be showcasing four films over four Sundays. We’ve got a great mix of films that includes something for everyone.
The series kicks-off on June 2nd with the recently released, The People’s Joker, the DIY coming-of-age Joker parody that already has a bit of a cult following. The film follows an unconfident, closeted trans girl as she moves to Gotham City to make it big as a comedian. Along the way she unites with a ragtag team of rejects and a certain love interest named Mister J, and "Joker the Harlequin" is born.
The following Sunday, June 9th, will feature Cheryl Dunne’s 1996 comedy/drama/romance film, The Watermelon Woman, in which Dunne stars as a video store clerk and aspiring director whose interest in forgotten Black actresses leads her to investigate an obscure 1930s performer known as the Watermelon Woman, whose story proves to have surprising resonances with Cheryl’s own life as she navigates a new relationship with a white girlfriend.
On June 16th, we’ll be showing the 2019 documentary, Scream, Queen! My Nightmare on Elm Street, which follows Mark Patton, the star of A Nightmare On Elm Street 2, as he sets the records straight about the controversial sequel which ended his acting career, just as he was becoming a movie star. It provides a window into the excitement of young stardom and the terrifying social climate of the early 80s AIDS epidemic.
The last film in the series is the coming-of-age drama, Pariah, which screens on June 23rd. It follows Alike, who is 17, a poet, and is quietly but firmly embracing her identity as a lesbian. Wondering how much she can confide in her family, Alike strives to get through adolescence with grace, humor, and tenacity – sometimes succeeding, sometimes not, but always moving forward.
Where will these screenings take place and when?
All of these screenings will take place at 4:00pm, at the Emagine Willow Creek Theatre in Plymouth, MN. Just a hop, skip, and a jump outside downtown Minneapolis. Tickets are $10, and on sale now at www.emagine-entertainment.com/queer-gaze
The annual Flip the Script Queer Film Festival will be running from October 11-19, 2024. What can audiences expect from this year's event?
All of these screenings will take place at 4:00pm, at the Emagine Willow Creek Theatre in Plymouth, MN.
How can a filmmaker submit their film to the festival? What's the deadline?
Filmmakers can submit their films through our FilmFreeway page(https://filmfreeway.com/FliptheScriptFest).
Submissions for this year’s festival closed on May 1st, but folks should look for them to open again in November for the 2025 edition.
Does Flip the Script host any other events throughout the year, other than the 9 day festival and the Pride series? When and where?
Yes! In addition to the festival and Pride series, we also host our monthly film series, Queer Gaze, where we celebrate new favorites, cult classics, and hidden gems. These films screen on the second Sunday of the month, and also take place at Emagine Willow Creek.
We are also very excited to announce the launch of our Membership program which will expand Queer Gaze to include a monthly film which will be available online in our virtual cinema. These films are exclusive to Members who join at the monthly rate of $10, or annually for $100. Folks can sign up for their membership now, with our first film, She is Conann, becoming available on June 28th, the beginning of Twin Cities Pride. To learn more about Membership, and other films coming to our virtual cinema, visit: https://queergaze.eventive.org
What do you love most about being the co-director of Flip the Script?
Matthew: Getting to show Queer films! When I was a teenager, I spent so much energy figuring out how to find gay movies and watch them without anyone knowing. Often this looked like me stumbling upon a film late at night on a premium cable channel, racing to the TV Guide channel to learn what it was, and then keeping an eye out for it to play again. Being able to revisit a lot of those films now, along with many new ones, and watch them in a theater with others is magic, every time.
Victoria: I absolutely love sitting in the theater with our audience members during screenings and the chats after in the lobby. Getting to hear stories about people’s connections to the films or a new idea or perspective they had never grasped before, it’s thrilling.
What do you love most about LGBT cinema?
Matthew: Very simply, getting to step into stories that show the world from a perspective that aligns more with my lived experience. I don’t have to imagine myself through the female lead, which is what a lot of movie watching was like when I was young.
Victoria: Queer cinema makes me feel seen! For the most part when I watch films, I want to see something new and exciting. It’s easy to forget while watching mainstream films, that there are different ways of thinking, storytelling, and even cinematic aesthetics out there! Queer cinema reminds me that there is an alternative out there in storytelling that feels like home.
What's missing in LGBT cinema that you wish were present more often? Why?
Matthew: Diversity! There are a lot of films that focus on the default human: white, cis, able-bodied, gay males. To me, this is not a reflection of real life. I want to be invited into the world of all kinds of protagonists as they navigate life, love, friendships, haunted houses, aliens, time travel and maybe even solve a mystery or two.
Victoria: Everything that Matt said, of course! I’ll also add, resources! I’m hopeful that producers and the like are getting hip to the fact that investing in Queer cinema will give them a return! The internet along with streaming services has shown that Queer audiences love Queer cinema and want MORE! I can’t wait for the day to see Queer filmmakers with even bigger budgets and crews, more often.
The fun happens here:
Emagine Willow Creek Theater, Plymouth, MN
Every Sunday during Pride Month • Start at 4:00 PM
A grateful participant sharing their experience and healing with kink. Not a Handbook on KINK! gives a fresh perspective to the kink community.
Not a Handbook on KINK! debuted online last May. Founder Aeryn Blackheart shares how this zine grew from a school project to something bigger.
Tell me about the new magazine Not A Handbook on KINK!
Thank you for this opportunity! Not A Handbook On KINK! is about my personal understanding of the intersections between the principles found within kink and personal core values. I want to be clear that I am not an expert on BDSM, and I am not a therapist. I have written this zine, first, as a guide for myself that serves as a code of conduct on how I want and choose to interact with others. This zine is a living testament of values and behavioral goals with a commitment to healing and personal growth.
What gave birth to the magazine?
I have always been a person that enjoys zines and has peers that are creators as well. I am a Graphic Design student, and one of our final projects last semester was to create a “How To Guide” on a simple, step-by-step process of anything of my choosing. I chose to showcase boundaries and how to set them, but wanted to do it in a unique way that hasn't been done before. I found myself enthralled by the idea of sharing my thoughts with others and decided that I wanted to make this school project something bigger, to share with the community. I also attended TC Zinefest at the Walker earlier this year and found myself excited, burning with passion, and inspired by other local zinesters.
Who would be your dream interview for the magazine and why?
Definitely Daemonum X. They are @daemonumx on Instagram and a multi-faceted human that I am inspired and mesmerized by.
What do you love most about the kink community?
So many things! As an autistic person, I value direct communication and clear expectations. As a kinky person, I feel seen and included. As a person that lives with trauma, kink has been a safe space in helping me heal and grow. As a creative, I am able to express, innovate, and share experiences. As a life-long learner, I am able to explore, grow, and take up space.
If there's one thing people need to know about the kink community, what would that be and why?
Well, like any community, there’s a variety of people, experiences, and ideas, and I do not want to overgeneralize the kink community simply from my perspective. I would say that, for me, the kink community is a healthy outlet where one can be totally themselves, authentic, and accepted. It can be a space for developing closeness with other values-aligned folks where safety and consent are at the forefront.
What should readers expect from reading the first edition?
This first edition is specifically tailored towards highlighting the inherent values found within kink, feature how to incorporate these principles into one’s daily life, while also
destigmatizing BDSM as being just a sexual practice. This issue is for any adults, of all
genders and demographics, who may be interested in self-improvement, personal growth, and building upon their emotional wellness.
What topics do you plan to cover in future editions?
I am enthusiastic about sharing my experience as a method of healing and personal growth, and in tandem, with the hopes of helping others. I enjoy combining my interests of harm reduction, emotional wellness, queer and trans experiences, BDSM, and art/creativity. I want to share personal stories and offer a platform and soapbox for others. I especially desire to highlight other community projects, peer submissions, works of art and passion, etc.
What do you hope to accomplish with the magazine?
With this issue, I hope to provide an unconventional and creative perspective on personal development while shining a light on pillars found within kink. Sure, BDSM can absolutely be about sex, pain, obedience, etc. AND the healing and personal development that I have found has been life-changing. In future issues, I would like to remain open to the development and exploration of various topics with the main focus being that zines are usually self-published, small-circulation compendiums that allow creators to communicate their opinions and concepts without the restrictions of more conventional publishing outlets. In a conversation with a friend of mine, we discussed that zines are temporary and a free/low-cost option whereas books can be costly and could be based on the permanence of making a name for oneself. Additionally, in the words of a local creative, Baki Baki Baki (@aloverswar on Instagram) “altars are zines and zines are altars.” This zine and future projects are my loving offerings to myself and our community.
Can readers submit their works to the magazine? If so, how?
Absolutely. Anyone interested in submitting or working together is welcome to email me at aerynblackheart@gmail and can also find me @aerynblackheart on Instagram. I would love to collaborate with other creatives, artists, and like-minded individuals. I strongly value community, and being newer to Minneapolis, I would love to connect more with others.
What kind of submissions are you accepting?
I am open to considering anything and everything! I would like to give a platform for others and myself to share personal stories and highlight other community projects. I would mostly like to stay in the realm of art/creativity, personal growth, kink and sex, interpersonal relationships, life skills, non-monogamy, harm reduction, LGBTQIA2S+, gender exploration and experiences, personal accounts of oppression and resistance, food, pleasure, radical views, and anything else that could potentially piss off your conservative relatives and challenge “traditional” societal beliefs.
Anything else you want to add?
In an effort to reduce impact to the environment, I am choosing to release this zine digitally and downloadable copies are also available. Links for free viewing are available on my Instagram and Patreon; both of these can be found by searching Aeryn Blackheart. Thank you for your time and consideration! <3
Your favorite unlicensed psychotherapist is back for season 2! Dr. Jackie: Unlicensed Psychotherapist returns with more laughs than before!
Season 2 comes just in time for Pride Month with an eclectic line-up that includes Debbie Harry, Neil Patrick Harris, Trixie Mattel, Bianca Del Rio, and many others. Jackie Beat gave us the scoop on what to expect from season 2 of Dr. Jackie: Unlicensed Psychotherapist.
Tell me about Unlicensed Psychotherapist.
Anyone who’s met me knows I am a loving, nurturing person who just wants to help people so sitting down with my famous friends and talking out their problems just makes sense. Just kidding! I’m self-centered and unqualified and that’s why the show is so funny!
How will season two be different from season one?
Season one was 90% improv and 10% scripted, but season 2 is the complete opposite. I think the more scripted and structured, but with the freedom to adlib and have fun, works better. Also, I also have different special guests.
Season two includes Debbie Harry, Neil Patrick Harris, Jane Lynch, Alaska Thunderfuck, to name a few. What was it like working with them?
It was great! I’m friends with most of my special guests so we just have fun. Jane Lynch and I go way back. We were actually in a sketch comedy group together in Los Angeles called For Entertainment Purposes Only in the ‘90s!
What’s your favorite episode of Unlicensed Psychotherapist?
I’ll answer that like a proud mother… I love all of them equally! But I have to say there is one scene with Willam, Alaska Thunderfuck & Bianca Del Rio that was kind of epic. And right when you think it can’t get any better - or feature more star power - Trixie Mattel pops up!
What’s the most memorable moment on set?
Definitely when Nancy Allen from the original Carrie dumped a bucket of blood on me!
How do you juggle between the series and your other endeavors?
The real work is writing the show and then editing it. We shoot it all in only 4 days. It’s brutal but so much fun. Don’t tell anyone, but it’s so much fun I would do it for free!
Season two begins just in time for Pride month. How do you hope this series plays into that time of the year?
Well, many of my guests are LGBTQ+ icons so there’s that. And even though my show is poking fun at therapy, I really do think a big part of being a happy person is about self-acceptance and Pride can certainly help one feel not only that, but a sense of community. Uh oh, I’m getting all serious!
What will you be doing for Pride this year?
Sherry Vine and Kelly Mantle and I are doing The Golden Girlz Live at RedEye in NYC and at the Ice Palace on Fire island to celebrate Pride. I live out and proud so every day is Pride for me. With a splash of Halloween!
Anything else you want to promote or a message to your fans?
Just please watch Dr. Jackie: Unlicensed Psychotherapist because I really want to get a season 3!
Waiting for the Bus will be making its world premiere on June 2 at Parkway Theater!
Waiting for the Bus is part of a project called Thresholds: Art, Science, and Neurodiversity. The standout of Waiting for the Bus is Michael Wolfe's A+ performance. Wolfe identifies as living with autism. I had the pleasure of chatting with him about appearing in front of the screen and living with autism.
Your film is being screened on June 2nd at Parkway Theater as part of Thresholds: Art, Science, and Neurodiversity. In what ways does your character represent the neurodiverse community?
It's a documentary sort. The document is about the real me. Basically, the documentary sort is about different facets of my personality since I'm the primary focus of the video. I was born with autism, and that right there put me on the mental disability spectrum. So I'd say that me myself, I am living representative of mental disability spectrum.
What attracted you to the film?
I am a member of a theater company called the Interact Center in St. Paul. Back in 2018, Aaron Gabriel who was the music director of Interact at the time invited Beth Graczyk to work with the LGBTQIA+ identified artists and create a new performance work at Interact. Beth [Graczyk, film director] has her own dance company, Beth Graczyk Productions. So her dance company and my theater company collaborated and created a project called Hear Them Now. And Beth liked the work that I did in the Hear Them Now dance project that she reached out to me. She invited me. She told me about Thresholds. So Thresholds is another dance project that her dance company is working on and the film is only a part of this dance project. The documentary film is a part of the Threshold Project. And so Beth contacted me through Aaron Gabriel [composer], and the two of them invited me to create some dance material with them, and they would make a video of the dance material. Ever since 2020, Beth, Aaron, and myself have been filming even though back then I had no idea that that is what we were doing.
Tell me about the biggest challenge of filming Waiting for the Bus.
So there wasn't really a challenge I just had. I just had to know what to do.
Beth asked me what is the most regular thing that I have done within my lifetime. Within recent years I've gotten into the habit of putting on my headphones and listening to music while I'm waiting for the bus because me listening to music actually helps the city bus to show up faster. Every once in a while I will dance to the music that I'm listening to. Sometimes I kind of don't care if other people see me or not, but I will turn off the music in my headphones and I will just dance at that bus stop, and I'll dance, and I'll dance, and I'll dance, and I'll just keep on dancing until the bus gets there. So Beth told me; she says, "What are some of the emotions that you get while you're waiting for the bus?" So Beth told me to take the emotions that I feel when I'm waiting for the bus and turn those emotions into actions. So whenever I'm waiting for the bus and I'm not dancing, these mannerisms begin to happen. So there are certain mannerisms that I would start to do. Like, when I get frustrated about something, there's always certain mannerisms that I would begin to act out. So, and those are the same mannerisms that I would begin to do when I'm waiting for the bus. I would do these mannerisms while waiting for the city bus. So the next thing that happens is Beth told me to take the mannerisms that I do when I'm waiting for the bus, and she told me to make them bigger. So I did that, and then she told me to make them bigger again, and so I did. The mannerism is even bigger. We do the same. We keep making my mannerisms bigger and bigger and bigger until they, until those mannerisms eventually become full blown dance moves.
What is the most important thing people should know about autism?
When people hear that someone has autism or when people hear that someone is on the spectrum, they immediately start associating that person with the autism stereotype. That is one thing that frustrates me. I don't know how to respond to that. That's not who I am. I am not a stereotype, I am not stigma, and if there's one thing that I don't like, I don't like being stigmatized. And as far as the autism spectrum is concerned, autism affects everybody in different ways. Autism affects everybody. It affects every single person in a different way. There are some people in the world who are this [mild] autistic and then there are some people in the world who are this [severe] autistic, and there's a whole variety of conditions that are in between. The way that my autism affects me is completely different from how somebody else's autism affects them. And I have to keep that in mind, especially when I'm addressing other people. And if I'm being honest, I think we all should keep that in mind.
What are some common misconceptions about autism that you encounter?
They don't expect us to aspire to be worthwhile or successful for that matter. Most of the world does not expect autistic people to amount to anything. They don't expect us to achieve anything that is worthwhile. They don't expect us to accomplish anything that is worthwhile. We as autistic people, we can accomplish things, we can accomplish things, and we can achieve things. So that is what most people think. Most people think that people with autism can't maintain a successful career, but we can and maintain a successful career. It's just that because of autism, we just need a little bit of help from the right people in order to accomplish our goals.
What's the biggest takeaway that you most hope for from audiences from Waiting for the Bus?
Well, to be perfectly honest with you, I am very nervous. I am very nervous for people to see this film even though the film is only six minutes long. I'm very nervous for people to see this film because there are people who are from other parts of my life. People from other parts of my life are coming to this premiere, and they are going to see my inner self in this film from other areas of my life. They're going to see a side of my personality that they usually don't see.
What are some of your favorite movies about autism? And what are some of your favorite LGBT films?
There is a movie that I like a lot. It's not one of my favorite movies, but I do like it a lot. It's Rainman with Tom Cruise and Dustin Hoffman. Dustin Hoffman plays a character who is on the spectrum. So, yeah, so Dustin Hoffman's character, because because of his disability, his brain is unable to comprehend certain things. But Tom Cruise's. Tom Cruise's character takes Dustin Hoffman's character to a casino one night. And they discover that Dustin Hoffman's character is very good at counting cards. The two of them [Cruise's character and his character's love interest] use Dustin Hoffman's [character's] ability to count numbers in order to make a lot of money. In this casino, the owner of the casino is gonna have them apprehended. And he's like, I have no idea how you make so much money inside of my casino out of my casino, but you can leave Las Vegas and you can take the money that you won with you. But you're banned from Las Vegas, you've been given a lifelong ban from Las Vegas.
[Favorite LGBT films: The Adventures of Priscilla: Queen of the Desert and To Wong Foo, Thanks for Everything! Julie Newmar]
What's next in cinema for you?
I don't have any other movies lined up, but the good news is Beth and I are in talks for making even more footage later on this year. And if we don't get around to making that footage this year, then we'll probably make more footage for this documentary next year. Like I said, the film is only a part of the Thresholds Project.
Tickets for Thresholds: Art, Science, and Neurodiversity, which includes Waiting for the Bus, can be purchased at the link below.
Parkway Theater
Doors open at 6:00 PM. Show starts at 6:30.
$14 in advance. $17 at the door
All ages
I interviewed Olivier Peyon, the Cesar nominated director of Lie With Me.
Lie With Me tells an emotional story of a man who reflects on his teenage years and his love from that time. I interviewed Cesar nominee Olivier Peyon, the director of Lie With Me. He shared about production on and off set, the importance in LGBT representation in cinema, and his reactions to being nominated for a Cesar award (French equivalent for the Oscar) in 2014.
First off, your documentary Comment j'ai détesté les maths (How I Came to Hate Math) was nominated for a Cesar award (French equivalent to the Oscar) in 2014. Describe the experience of a movie that you directed having been nominated for such a prestigious award.
It was fun to imagine that all the mathematicians I had filmed for two years would be represented in a glamorous ceremony! I was especially happy because this nomination was the symbol of the public success in theaters, and it was a real recognition for all these women and men scientists who had trusted me by agreeing to be in my film.
You adapted Lie With Me from the autobiographical novel written by Philippe Besson. What attracted you to the novel?
When I was asked to adapt the book for cinema, I still hadn’t read it. I thought it was simply a coming-of-age love story, and I didn’t see how I could renew the genre, as so many films had already been made about the subject. Once I’d read the book, however, I thought the love story was as magnificent as it was tragic, but what especially caught my attention was the other part of the book which tells the story of Philippe Besson’s encounter with Lucas, his first love’s son. In the end, it is something that Lucas says that convinced me: “You should have seen the look in his eyes. It is at this precise moment that I became certain that it had all existed: my father had been in love with a boy.” I wanted to tell the story of this son who is trying to discover his father’s secrets and to make this encounter the main focus, the center of my film. The book is turned towards the past while I wanted to highlight the present.
Has book author Philippe Besson seen the film adaptation? If so, what was his reaction?
Yes, of course. I was totally free to adapt as I wished his book Philippe Besson, the novelist, had given me carte blanche: “The greatest betrayals make the best adaptations,” he’d told me. But because it was an autobiographical story I felt all the more responsible and often asked him questions about wonders I had or things that weren’t in the book. So step by step we became friends, and I let him read the different drafts of the script or also watch the casting tapes, and he came during the shooting to share the experience with me, the actors, and the crew.
He saw the film twice when it was done, and he was very touched, but also very confused because suddenly his lost love, Thomas, was alive again on the screen, and everybody could know him with images and not just words.
I think he was honest when he said he loved the movie because he was a lot with us for the several premiers all over the world, and because he’s really famous in France, he helped us a lot by being really involved during the French release in the media.
What's your favorite part of adapting the novel into a film?
Adapting this novel was fascinating but complex because Phillippe Besson’s writing is very introspective and action is reduced to the bare minimum. In his book, the encounter between the novelist and the son is practically a pretext for telling the story of what happened in the past. I had to dramatize this encounter and build a narrative for these two characters so that what is happening in the present day would become the main storyline.
What are the most memorable stories on set?
Perhaps the sex scenes. The novel is rather graphic at times, and I didn’t want to water it down. It tells the story of learning and discovery and how sex is part of this journey towards love. While the first scene lacks any kind of tenderness between the two characters, I wanted to follow it up with more sensitivity and joy; that we feel the desire of one body for another, the intoxication of pleasure. When these two boys are together, nothing else exists.
We had a very long casting process. Jérémy Gillet and Julien de Saint Jean were very good in their individual screen tests, as were many others. It was especially when they acted together that this pair stood out from the rest. It was so obvious. I will always remember the moment when they met! And they proved me right because during the shoot, they never stopped expanding their range, and their acting continually evolved in depth and nuance.
This was the first time I’d ever shot sex scenes – in fact, the first time I’ve filmed a love story – but I firmly believed that I would know how to shoot them once the actors were chosen. I felt that I needed to rely upon their energy to construct the scene and stage it. Yet the most important thing was also to include Julien and Jérémy in the staging process, explaining to them what I wanted to do and why, as well as welcoming their suggestions that were often fantastic. The freedom that I hope is felt in these scenes stems directly from this mutual trust.
Lie With Me has been selected to multiple LGBT film festivals, including FilmOut San Diego (winner for Best Narrative Feature), Miami OUTshine Film Festival (winner for Best Feature), and ImageOut: Rochester LGBT Film Festival (winner for Best Narrative Feature). How does it feel knowing that your film has reached so many people?
I was very happy with the success of the film abroad since we sold it in around twenty countries, although because of the LGBT theme and the love scenes, it was banned in a large part of the world such as China, Russia, Hungary, Africa, the Maghreb. This is the reality of the world, we must never forget it ! It was therefore all the more important for me because it touched the spectators who could see it, at LGBT festivals of course but also outside our community. The story has something universal that goes beyond sexual orientation, which is also what I liked about the novel.
What audience reaction of Lie With Me stands out most?
I showed the film a lot in festivals before its release in France; I mean not LGBT films festivals. Many spectators came to watch it without knowing the subject. Many of them told me at the end of the screenings how they didn't know any gay people in their circle and how this film made them understand things, especially that love doesn't have sex ¡ So the road is still long…
What do you love most about making movies?
Working with actors.
How important are LGBT films and why?
They’re essential because we need representations of the LGBT community. Our rights remain fragile, like those of women and minorities. because it‘s a way to make exist and normalize the LGBTQ+ issues in the eyes of the general public.
What's your favorite LGBT film and why?
My Own Private Idaho by Gus Van Sant - Brokeback Mountain by Ang Lee - but my favorite is a british series: It's a Sin by Russel T Davies about friendships and love in the eighties in London with the start of the AIDS epidemic.
What can audiences expect from watching Lie With Me?
Each spectator is different with [their] own background and feelings who‘ll watch my film from his own point of view, so he will find his own message that will talk to him, but if my movie could help to show more empathy and acceptance towards the difference, or simply towards the other, I wouldn’t be unhappy.
Solo is named AnderSCENE number one in MSPIFF43 LGBT show!
During the Minneapolis St. Paul International Film Festival 43, I chatted with Sophie Dupuis, the director of Solo. She appeared at the festival to introduce the film and to answer audience questions. She was shortlisted for the Oscar nomination for Best International Feature Film in 2018 for her film Chien de Garde (Family First). She dished on the production of Solo, being surrounded by fabulousness, and her future in filmmaking.
Tell me about Solo.
Solo is a film about two guys that are drag queens and fell in love and are having a very nice love story. But the love story is beginning to get a bit toxic and destructive. And so Simon is navigating to that while keeping performing on in the drag scene, and he's trying to reconnect with his mother, who was away for 15 years now, who is a big opera singer. He's having a hard time to reconnect with her. It's a story about someone who's having difficulties to navigate relationships with people that don't really love him.
What inspired you to do Solo?
I'm a big fan of the drag art. I was researching or maybe just being a real fan. I didn't know I was gonna write a story about the drag queen at one point, and I was really interested in a toxic relationship. I was doing a lot of research about it too, and I wanted to do a film about that because I thought it was a really interesting psychological thing. For me as a writer, I wrote too, it was interesting to write dialogue. So at one point, I decided to combine the two, and I think while I was writing it, I discovered that it was a really good match, and it was interesting to have a character who is a drag queen. So he is discovering himself through his drag character and celebrating himself on a stage while he is in a toxic relationship who's trying to diminish him. So it was a contrary, a very interesting contradiction. So while I was writing it, I thought that the two subjects were a good match.
What are the biggest challenges during the making of Solo?
We had a lot of challenges. I broke my leg, my leg for real a week before we were starting pre production. That was a technicality. But the big challenge for me was to create those six drag queens because there are six drag queens in my film: the two main characters and the four friends. It was a really interesting collaboration to have with makeup, costumes, hair, and the actors who I wanted to give a lot of space to create their own drag. And the choreographer with us, we had to work a lot together to create those characters and while the actors were preparing out of drag characters too.
So, it was a lot and, and it was really interesting, and during the same time, I was looking for the music. We had to have the right to use the music before the shoot in order to create the choreography too. So every time I was adding new music, the film was taking a different shape every time, and the character and the drag characters were taking different shapes. So it was very, very interesting, and it was a challenge, but it was mostly a really nice collaboration, all of us.
I'm so glad that you were still able to get your film done despite all those challenges.
Yeah. I think the fact that I created a real drag group, this chosen family. This chosen family. The importance of it and the energy inside of a chosen family, which is a very queer concept in some way, was happening in real life too. And we got a real bond together. And we became very, very good friends. We are still very good friends now. And I think that the fact that I broke my leg kind of got my team together. So all of this together made something very special. I think we really got through that film with a lot of love and with the crew. Yeah. It was very, very special.
That's great. What do you love most about filmmaking?
I discovered because it's my third feature that I really like to connect people with realities that they don't know a lot about and by connecting them with the character because they all fall in love with the characters every time and they develop an empathy for them. I think that's a very good way to open your heart to something to realities that you don't know. I like to meet the public at the end after a projection. And a lot of people came to me saying, "I thought that wasn't a film for me. I tried it and I'm happy I did because it's not just a film about drag queens or it's not only a queer movie. It's a love story between two people, and it happens to be drag queens, and they connect with the love story, the toxic relationship." After that, they say now I want to go to drag shows. Now I think that I changed my perception of the community with films. It's not my ultimate goal, but to connect people with a reality they don't know, is something that I can do with my films and that I want to do more and more.
What do you love most about LGBT cinema? And what is something that you don't feel you don't see enough of [in LGBT cinema] that you wish you did?
The thing that I love the most is the freedom, the flamboyance. I think that queer people are more free than other people because they get through the construction of what society thinks we should be. I think that queer people don't have a choice than to be free when you're queer in some way. Because the way you love, the way you live, the way you identify is out of the books. I think you learn to be free because of all those. So I think that characters in LGBTQ movies and queer movies always give us this freedom feeling. That's something that I feel, even if the story is about a queer character that discovers his homosexuality, his trans identity, or anything. In any story, even if it's something difficult for them, I feel this freedom in some ways. And I think that's my favorite part of the queer movie.
The thing that I think we miss the most is queer stories that are not about discovering your identity and coming out. I think that talking about queer people that are just living their lives and maybe are surrounded by accepting and loving people can be very good for representation too in the movie where queerness is celebrated too. I know that because some people came to me with Solo and told me that it was one of the first times they saw themselves on the screen without their identity or their [sexuality] being a problem in the story. So I think that's what we miss the most.
What are some of your favorite LGBT films? And what are some of your most influential LGBT figures?
It's an English movie. I think it is one of my favorite queer movies. It's two men that met in a club and passed getting to know each other knowing that there's a deadline at the end of the weekend because one of them is going away from town. It's only in an apartment, and they're just talking together and doing drugs and having sex, and I think it's very beautiful. That's my favorite movie. [Dupuis didn't say the movie title.]
And my favorite figure, I have to mention Dominic Jackson from Pose. I'm in love with her character in Pose. I really like to follow her because I think she's an activist who uses a lot of positivity to advocate for the community. And I have to say Rupaul for the celebration and all he does for the drag community by bringing it to the mainstream culture. I really think that if we can see images and videos of drag queens without being offended, it is because of a part of his job that he did. I'm from Canada and Quebec. We're mostly accepting of drag queens. I think that the job Rupaul did is, the way we're living in Quebec, is a result of it, even if it was in America. I can name a lot. I can name a lot. I would have a list of 20 people, but I think I'll save them for the moment.
Your film Chien de Garde (Family First). That movie was shortlisted for the Oscar in nomination for Best International Film. Tell me about the emotions going through when you found that out.
It was my first feature, so I never thought it was a possibility. When they called me, I was wearing jogging pants [and] going to the store. Never thought it was a possibility. So it got really hot, and it's funny how you get on the train. You have to be ready at all times to live that kind of emotions and events and go through it. We don't have to think that much and just go through it. But it was a confirmation for me that I have interesting things to say and that my way of saying it was good. So it was mostly a good help for my continuation in the cinema field.
Have you started rehearsing your Oscars winning speech? If so, what are you most likely to say, and who are you most likely to thank?
I haven't. But my actors are always in the center of my work from early on. I'm always doing a lot of casting and seeing hundreds of people trying to find not only the right talent but the right connection between us, the right person to create with me. And we're rehearsing a lot, and we change everything just some days before shooting. We write, we question everything. I give them a lot of space to be creators and to get to know their characters better than me. I think for me when we're shooting, we're equal in the direction that they're taking. So sometimes they say because they know they can do that with me. They say, "Let me just do my version for this, for this take," and they're always right. It's always the version that I use in the edit. They're creators behind the film with me. I fall in love with every actor, actors I work with. I think they are a link. They are a link to me in some way until we die.
Who would you most want to work with in a film?
Théodore Pellerin is my main lead actor in Solo. He played in my three features. I gotta say the person I want to work with more is him. We kind of grew up together. I shot my first feature when he was 19, and we follow each other since that day. I think he's becoming the greatest actor I've seen in my life, and I'm sure he's, he's working everywhere now around the world, in America too. You can see him in some things. He just finished shooting in LA right now. I think he's going to be one of our big stars. He's a delight to work with, and now we have a method together. We know each other very well. He knows the creation space he can take with me, and he's taking it. I don't think I have a part for him in my next movie, and it's crushing to me. It's so sad because we really wanna work together again.
My last question, what's...
...next? I'm working on a feature right now. It's going to be a queer movie again, more queer than ever. Some people will ask how the film can be more queer than Solo, but it will be. I don't want to talk too much about it. I think I want to keep it to myself for the moment. But I wish to uplift again the queer coming.
Minneapolis St. Paul International Film Festival hosted their 43rd annual event from April 11-25, 2024 at The Main Cinema. The festival included 10 LGBT features.
These films include related topics such as history, trans, intersex, addiction, drag performance, and culture. These stories come from various parts of the world including The US, Canada, Thailand, Pakistan, Norway, and Slovakia. These outstanding filmmakers remind viewers of the importance of LGBT films because of how they help with representation.
Mad About the Boy: The Noel Coward Story 2023/ Documentary/ UK/ English/ 90 min.
Mad About the Boy: The Noel Coward Story chronicles how Coward went from a tough childhood to an acting legend. Mad About the Boy is narrated by Alan Cumming and Rupert Everett. The documentary uses visuals from his performances to tell his story. These visuals give audiences the feeling of living during the silent generation and early golden age of filmmaking. These video clips don't appear to have been restored, which works on the documentary maker's behalf. Video clips include pedestrians walking along a city sidewalk and movie clips that were filmed as early as the 1900s. Stills of Coward, his family, and his friends, and fellow performers enhance the telling the story of his off-screen life, which includes keeping secrets (especially his sexual orientation), struggling with acceptance, and often struggling with finances. 4.5/5 stars
I Am Sirat 2023/ Documentary/ Canada, India/ Punjabi/ 87 min.
I am Sirat shares Sirat's struggles of living a double life, one as a man named Aman that is lived around her family and the other as her true self named Sirat that is lived around her friends, lovers, co-workers, and online. Sirat records clips of herself dancing to music and posts them on Instagram. She uses these clips to give the trans community representation. I Am Sirat uses smartphone vertical shots by Sirat and horizontal shots by the producers. This technique provides a deeper glimpse of Sirat living as a trans woman in India. I Am Sirat proves that sometimes, educating viewers about trans culture in India is more poignant when sharing a story of one individual instead of the country as a whole. I Am Sirat excels at this. 4/5 stars
Solo 2023/ Drama/ Canada/ French/ 101 min.
Solo is a music dramedy about Simon who juggles life as a drag queen, boyfriend, brother, son, and gay man. By combining these aspects, a viewer will want to dance at times and cry at other times. Solo gives audiences glitz, glamour, lights, glitter, and doomed love. If a viewer mixes The Adventures of Priscilla: Queen of the Desert, Birdcage, Kinky Boots, Flashdance, and Saturday Night Fever, they'll get Solo. The most memorable moments of Solo are the colorful shiny drag outfits and the powerhouse performance by Théodore Pellerin (Simon). 5/5 stars
Solids by the Seashore 2023/ Drama/ Thailand/ Thai/ 93 min.
Solids by the Seashore is a drama that explores a love between two women that must be kept secret. The protagonist Shanti falls in love with Fon. Shanti feels torn because of her family pressuring her to marry a man. Solids by the Seashore includes exquisite cinematography of the nearby sea and numerous other nature sights. The colors and the depth stand out with the camera work. There are moments in the film when this is enough to tell the story. The cinematography assists to maintain audience interest successfully. 3/5 stars
Listen Up! 2023/ Comedy/ Norway/ Norwegian & Urdu/ 86 min.
In Listen Up, a Pakistani family immigrated to Norway many years ago in hopes for a better life. In some ways, they're successful but not in every way. Family tensions prevent them from feeling successful in Norway. Eventually, the younger sibling Ali reveals to the family that he is a trans girl. Not everybody is accepting. Listen Up is a comedy that is told through the point of view of the older brother Mahmoud. It successfully incorporates humor to a serious topic while never losing touch with how important acceptance is. Also, the film breaks the fourth wall, a difficult act, multiple times by Mahmoud. The performances and the screenplay are the standouts of Listen Up. Listen Up has potential for the Oscar shortlist for Best International Feature and Best Adapted Screenplay. 5/5 stars
Lady Like 2024/ Documentary/ US/ English/ 87 min.
Lady Like documents drag queen Lady Camden's quest for success on Rupaul's Drag Race Season 14. Meanwhile, it covers childhood trauma she endured and how she rose to the drag scene. It uses interviews, archival clips, and docu-fantasy to share Lady Camden's story. It has the power to inspire viewers to know that success is possible, regardless of one's past. The standout is the docu-fantasy that includes fashion, lights, glitter, and fantasy. This allows the filmmakers to give audiences a glimpse of Lady Camden's childhood that words can't reveal. 5/5 stars
The Queen of My Dreams 2023/ Dramedy/ Canada/ English & Urdu/ 96 min.
The Queen of My Dreams shares the point of view between a daughter and her mother, the daughter being more enhanced. The daughter Azra, a young woman living in Toronto, receives a phone call from her family that her dad died. She flies to her childhood home Pakistan where her family still lives. There, Azra faces family drama that remains from having faced non-acceptance after coming out. The Queen of My Dreams navigates the storyline by traditional independent filmmaking while adding a Bollywood vibe. The combination adds a touch of lighthearted comedy, music, and colorful outfits. Meanwhile, the film switches between 1999 and when Azra's mother falls in love with Azra's father in the 1960s. The two storylines are easy to intertwine. 3/5 stars
We Have Never Been Modern 2023/ Drama/ Slovakia/ Czech & Slovak/ 117 min.
We Have Never Been Modern offers a 1937 lens of living as intersex. An intersex newborn is found dead in a pile of rubble by a factory. Pregnant nurse Helena investigates who placed the baby there. During which, she learns more about the intersex community than she expected. Little do the characters know is the historic catastrophe that will soon come. Filmmakers are careful with always acknowledging that societal views haven't yet progressed to where they currently are. This aspect ranges from terminology to medical knowledge to societal acceptance. The strongest film detail is subtly reminding audiences what occurs years later. 3.5/5
Days of Happiness 2023/ Drama/ Canada/ French/ 118 min.
Days of Happiness explores Emma's quest to become a successful music conductor. Emma has the talent, the determination, and the passion for music. She later learns that she must overcome childhood trauma to flourish in the music scene. Viewers don't need the ability to recognize a strong vs weak classical music performance. The film reveals the differences with cinematography and editing. The film includes a same sex relationship without exploring LGBT issues. Filmmakers treat the relationship the same as a typical dual sex one. Sophie Desmarias shines in her role as Emma. 5/5
High & Low: John Galliano 2023/ Documentary/ UK/ English & French/ 116 min
High & Low: John Galliano educates audiences on the rise and fall of Galliano. It starts with the anti-Semitic and racist remarks he uttered in 2011, which caused his downfall. It proceeds with Galliano's upbringing, his introduction to fashion, his creative extent, and a rocky childhood. It includes interviews from Galliano himself, friends, colleagues, and fashion experts. Every interview offers a unique perspective of Galliano. Not every interviewee agrees with everything, but this makes the documentary more interesting. It also includes clips of mostly fashion shows and personal photos. Besides the 2011 scandal, this is an inspiring documentary for anybody, not just those in the fashion industry. 3.5/5 stars
AnderSCENE top 3 in MSPIFF43 LGBT show are: 3. Days of Happiness, 2. Listen Up!, 1. Solo
The Most Dangerous Gains is a B-Movie comedy horror that tackles heteronormativity.
Think Quentin Tarantino meets Beavis and Butthead! Add a positive message. I chatted with director Samuel Studer and two cast members Splash (unidentified drag queen) and Maren Tagney (Pia). They dished about what a blast they had doing it and how Studer proudly owns the title B-Movie!
The Most Dangerous Gains will be screened at Heights Theater on Sunday, May 5. Doors open at 6:00 PM. Showtime starts between 7:30 - 7:45.
Tell me about when you realized you wanted to be a filmmaker (Samuel)/ performer (Splash & Maren).
SS: I suppose I’ve had the inkling for many years, but it was only recently that I finally decided to take it seriously. The fall of 2022 was a dark time for me mentally. I was profoundly depressed, I felt unaccomplished and unfulfilled creatively, and the thought of filmmaking brought me out of that. Why not take the risk? What are you afraid of? Let’s see where this goes, and see if this could get me into film school, and out of this existential rut.
S: I actually grew involved with theater and just performing in general. I had a lot of excess energy. So, my grandma was a really huge, uh, part of my life as a kid. And she told my parents, "You need, we need to put him in something. This is just a lot." So I started doing little things like stepping stone eventually, was with an agency for a while, and did little commercials, and things like that. I've always been interested in performing, and then he [Samuel Studer] had mentioned that he was doing a project, and he wanted me to be in it. I had been doing drag at that point for almost a year, I think. So. I was like, yeah, sign me up.
MT: I actually didn’t have much interest in acting before being approached for this film. I'm not a terribly extroverted person, and the idea of performing has always made me anxious. That being said, I decided to take a chance and discovered that I really enjoy acting (although I'm probably not winning any best actor awards in the near future).
What do you love most about filmmaking (Samuel)/ performer (Splash & Maren)?
SS: I love watching an idea come to life. Prior to this, I found great joy in making music (including on this project, which is composed by me and my friend), but I especially love stories and storytelling. Now, in the case of The Most Dangerous Gains, I get to reflect on the seeds of an idea from 14 months ago and how it came to fruition. I remember all the contributions the cast and crew made, all of their ideas that really made the movie feel collaborative. It’s a really cool, sentimental thing. It’s what I wanted all along.
S: I feel like with acting, it kind of touches that inner child in me of where I get to just play, make believe and pretend, and just have fun.
MT: I love the idea of being able to transform into someone completely different for a little while. Also, costumes. I love any reason to dress up.
Who and what movies inspire you the most?
SS: Oh, there’s so many. Filmmakers like the Coen Brothers (No Country For Old Men, The Big Lebowski) and Martin McDonagh (In Bruges, The Banshees of Inisherin) have a way of weaving a sort of dry humor over serious subject matters. I think it’s a good balance; I approach life with a sense of humor and I want that to show in my art. The first movie that got me into movies was One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest, when I was 15 or so. I love the direction that the horror/thriller genre is going with directors like Ari Aster, Jordan Peele, Rose Glass, and Robert Eggers.
S: I really love Old Hollywood. I love Marilyn Monroe and Dorothy Dandridge. And then for more modern things, I'm really a big fan of Julianne Moore. Oh, and Diane Carroll, she was a Broadway actress, and then she was in Dynasty. Love her. One of my favorite movies is Eve's Bayou. It's with Samuel Jackson, Lynn Whitfield, and Diane Carroll. It's about a New Orleans voodoo, and it tells of a family living in the South, and it's really good.
MT: Oscar Wilde, David Cronenberg, the Muppets, Harold and Maude, Rushmore, 80s B horror, anything that makes me cry.
What inspired you to do The Most Dangerous Gains, and what made you decide to tackle heteronormativity?
SS: The idea began in the gym, a male dominated environment. I’ve spoken with female friends about the gym and the discomfort that can come with that - feeling the male gaze, particularly in a vulnerable situation like that where you’re working on yourself, you’re sweaty, you may not feel at your best. It got me thinking about the male ego, insecurity, peacocking, things along these lines. I was texting my friend, who I co-wrote the script with, about an idea - a horror movie where bodybuilders go to impress women, and the women kill them. He said, “what about this…the Most Dangerous Gains?” We had a good laugh, and I decided to run with it. Make a movie starting with a title, a little backwards, but it spurred so many ideas. The 70’s aesthetic came from my own appreciation of the aesthetic of Giallo slashers such as Suspiria or Deep Red, as well as the realization that leaning into the low budget aesthetic would be the most attainable. I could have my non-actor friends play one dimensional characters and it would suit the movie. The heteronormative aspects of the movie are intended to be ridiculous, because there are many ways in which rigid gender roles are…goofy.
What do you love most about how the movie covers heteronormativity?
S: I think it does it in a really funny comical way, and I think the movie, Sam's movie, it doesn't take itself seriously, which I really enjoy because, especially with even me as a draft performer, I just feel like you don't have to be serious all the time. You don't have to take yourself seriously and you can just have fun. I feel like you need more of that in the world. I feel like if people didn't take themselves so seriously, I feel like this world would be a lot more fun.
MT: I think there's some great commentary on the ridiculous (and often humorous) machismo culture that many men are consumed with as a result of heteronormative stereotypes. The film also has more than a few homoerotic undertones.
What drew you into The Most Dangerous Gains?
S: Mostly because Sam is my best friend, and I think he's really talented. So I just trusted his vision, and I thought it would be just a really fun experience and also to have some more exposure with my drag character [Splash] as well.
MT: As a big fan of both horror and satire, I was immediately interested in being involved. Once I read the script, I was sold. The dialogue is clever and laugh out loud funny, and there's no shortage of goofy and shocking moments.
What people and characters did you channel when creating this movie?
SS: The 70’s aesthetic came from my own appreciation of the aesthetic of Giallo slashers such as Suspiria or Deep Red, as well as the realization that leaning into the low budget aesthetic would be the most attainable. I could have my non-actor friends play one dimensional characters and it would suit the movie. The Most Dangerous Gains is a satire of old, sexually driven horror films and the fear-mongering fantasies of traditionalists both old and new. And a homage, as well. This movie is meant to be watched the way I enjoy tacky cinema, movies such as the Death Wish series or Roadhouse, with irony.
S: I kind of danced around in some of the scenes and the stupid little dance I do. I actually got from American Psycho when Christian Bale hires one of the sex workers, and he's like, "Sabrina. Why don't you dance around for us?" And then she just starts doing this weird awful dance. So, I had to settle that.
MT: I took inspiration from the Giallo films and moody 70s slashers I'd seen over the years, and Sam and Splash did an amazing job finding inspiration for each character. Sharon Stone in Basic Instinct, Rose McGowan in Jawbreaker, and Anna Nicole Smith just being, well, Anna Nicole Smith, were some of my favorite characters and people to channel when playing Pia.
Tell me about your characters the unidentified drag queen (Splash) and Pia (Maren).
S: the unidentified drag queen, according to Sam. She represents danger and death whenever you see her coming on the screen, I don't want to get too much away, but she is, she's definitely a villain, a mysterious villain.
MT: On the surface, Pia is a combination of ditzy and seductive, but there's definitely a character evolution that happens as the story goes on. No one in this film is quite who they seem.
What do you love most about your character?
S: I get to be mysterious, I get to be a villain, and I get to be pretty. I love the bad girl trope in films as well. Like, I used to watch a lot of Bond films with my dad when I was a kid and I've always loved the evil Bond girl who always turns on him.
MT: Her boldness and unabashed determination. Nothing but respect for a woman who knows exactly what she wants.
Tell me about the most interesting time on set.
SS: One of the best days was filming in the graveyard. It was an absolutely gorgeous day, and we were running a small crew that day. We had a lot to film, and we were at the mercy of the sun for light, so we were working but we were also having so much fun with it. This culminated in a frantic effort to get one final shot, arguably the most important in the movie. It involved fake blood, and we had about 5 minutes before the sun dipped below the trees, so we had one shot. I had one guy on the ground with the camera, covered in a tarp, and the other two with jars of fake blood, funnels, and lengths of tube, in order to blow the fake blood all over me. I gave everyone instructions and we went for it. I was so worried. What if it was out of focus? What if Bobby forgot to hit record? It ended up being the best shot in the movie. We packed up as the sun went down, I cleaned myself up as best I could, and we found the closest bar to share some laughs over beers. It was a beautiful moment.
S: So the most interesting times on set. I mean, again, a lot of the people on set and people involved with the movie are all good friends of ours and network of friends. So it just feels familiar, feels like home, I guess you would say. And then I also did, like during the filming, a candid experience, a death of a loved one. Some of the time, I won't lie, it's kind of a blur. But there was one day actually where we got to film. We filmed at a park and, it was a really hot day, and I was in drag, and as soon as the filming was over, I stripped down to just my drag undergarments and walked to the park back to the car. And that was really funny.
MT: Any time fake blood was involved proved interesting, but specifically while filming a scene where my mouth was full of it. This concoction in particular tasted like toothpaste which was actually pretty refreshing.
Splash, I'm so sorry to hear about the death of your loved one. I'm so glad that you were still able to pull up the role, despite that.
S: I'm a professional. I'm a professional. At the end of the day there's a job to do. I got a job to do and I'm going to do it.
What's your favorite part of the production of the movie?
S: I love getting into drag in general, doing make up, and getting into costumes, and just seeing all the work that goes into the set design, and I just really love the whole process of it. It's fun to do things over and over again and try different things. Like being that it's on film rather. I see the stage. Theater was my first love but especially like when you're performing in not two rehearsals. You got to get it right away, and what you get is just what you get when you go on the stage. But being in film you can actually take more time out, try different things which I really like.
MT: Although it was technically post-production, I loved doing the voice acting work after we'd wrapped up filming.
What do you most hope for from audiences?
SS: I hope they have fun. I hope people are entertained and they laugh and maybe even get a little scared at the horror moments. I guess we’ll see. Come May 5, we’ll definitely find out what the audience thinks.
S: That they just enjoy it. That they have a good time. That they find it funny like we did.
MT: My hope is that they enjoy the ride. We had a blast working on MDG, and I think the audience will feel that when they see the film.
Do you have any other productions lined up?
SS: I have a lot of story ideas that I’m eager to write, but no immediate project plans. I’m still waiting to hear back from film school in London, so I’m saving some of them for that.
S: At the moment, no.
MT: Nothing at the moment, but I’d love to be involved in more projects! Film is a huge passion of mine, whether it be in front of or behind the camera.
Is there anything else you wanna add?
S: Can I put my Instagram in there for you to follow me: enterthesplashzone
MT: Come see The Most Dangerous Gains on May 5th at The Heights Theater. You'll laugh, you'll gag, you'll gasp, and you'll be supporting some incredibly talented local creatives.
SS: I hope you enjoyed the movie to some extent, at least. Yeah, I sure did.
I enjoyed it and, and I think this is good. I think this movie has potential to reach a lot of people, and I do think this has potential to reach LGBT folks.
SS: That's good. I would hope that anything I make isn't ostracizing anybody or making anyone feel othered. I know it's a bit of a touchy subject matter to kind of dance around and dance within. I tried to do it with some humor and some flair and some over the top. I'm just hoping that that comes through. I'm really happy to hear you say that. Yeah, thank you.
Absolutely. From what I saw of the movie, I think that the message did come through, and I think you handled it sensitively. You did find some places where people can laugh, and I think you found the right spots to do that. So kudos to you for that.
SS: Thank you. That's, it's really touching to hear. I appreciate that a lot.
I had the pleasure of interviewing Jack Tracy, lead actor and creator of Danny Will Die Alone. He talked about the series, how it was created, and his own dating life.
Tell me about Danny Will Die Alone.
Danny Will Die Alone was started as a little straight to camera Youtube commentary video that I started to do during the pandemic when I had to figure out things to produce from my own living room. So I did these Youtube essays on dating topics, and then as things started loosening up, I did a podcast called Dying Alone Together where it was me and a co-host. We would talk about dating subjects and our adventures and dating. And then some of those stories all turned into Danny Will Die Alone, which was a nine episode mini series that was meant for only a limited release for just the people that follow and support me. And when I sent it to Dekkoo, they loved it and asked to turn it into an original series. So that's the evolution of Danny. The show follows a character that is based off of me. But I became my most jaded twisted self who went through dating as a complete train wreck, and he's [Danny] dating other train wrecks, and it's following his misadventures and trying to find love but not realizing that he's half of the problem. That started as nine episodes. Each episode is a self contained date. In season two, we'll move to full half hour episodes that tell an entire storyline, and that will be released in the fall.
The series is loosely based on your dating experiences in a midlife crisis. What inspired you to share your story with the community?
So I am what you would call a serial monogamous. Ever since college, I've been in long term relationships, usually with a little bit of break between but lived with all of my exes, multi year sort of things. I found myself single right before the pandemic hit. And then all through that all up until now, I just found that dating has really changed, the apps are so different, and, dating via the apps, you meet all sorts of people. I also think from the perspective of someone who started dating in the 2000s. Dating now; the culture, even our queer culture has changed. It's one of those things where I am a little out of touch. Am I really up on the conversations and the trends? So it's interesting to date in my early forties through these new means of dating, and I just had so many wacky adventures in real life that it was the treasure trail of stories. I will tell you that every single date is based off of something that happens now for comedy and for entertainment purposes, of course, change and embellish and make it bigger, but they all have a kernel of truth in them.
Danny Will Die Alone, got picked up by Dekkoo. Describe the emotions going through you because of that.
I just remember hanging up the phone and just saying to myself alone in my apartment like, we did it! I have worked since probably 2017. I did three seasons of a web series called History. I released music. I've done other web series. I've done an independent movie. I've been doing this for a long time, all self funded, all just trying to get my stuff out there trying to get noticed, and this was the first time that a studio looked at me and said, "We like what you're doing. Here's some money, make something for us." This felt like the start of an entirely new chapter in this side of my career. 2024 has started. I just feel like I've, I've leveled up, and it's incredible, and I'm very thankful to that group for the opportunity.
I'm so glad that this is happening, and what a wonderful series to have picked up. I have a good feeling that this is going to go somewhere.
I hope so. My co-producer Joseph Patrick Conroy and I have worked together for 5-6 years on projects now, and we walked away from this one saying like, you know, you never wanna say this because you never know. But we walked away from this one like this is the one, this is the thing. This. There's something special about this one. When we just finished wrapping season two, we started looking at the footage, started cutting, and we're all kind of like this is something; this is a show show. This is a real thing. So we're very excited to show this to the world.
What's your favorite episode of season one and why?
That's a good question. I'll give you two because one seems to be everyone else's favorite, and the other one's my favorite. So everyone else's favorite is the sex guru [episode] because the actor is so good. Harry plays this intimacy coach, sex guru meditation guy who has these weird theories about consent. He played it so strangely. It makes your skin crawl as you watch the episode. Everyone loves that one. My personal favorite is the doctor one. Danny is trying to teach how to do fun sexy role plays, and the doctor keeps diagnosing him with colon cancer during the role play. That one makes me laugh the most.
What's the most memorable part of production?
The most memorable part for me, it's actually the pre-production. It's after the scripts are done, and you're ready to go. It's like the first time that things start to come together. You're reviewing submissions for actors, you're booking the venues, you're trying to find background actors, you're assembling the crew. That's just that sort of Avengers assemble kind of period where everybody's the team comes together. I love telling stories from that, and I love telling the actors when I got their audition tape, I thought for this, but then you did a better job on this. I love those behind the scenes stories.
Describe the production process of Danny Will Die Alone.
Season one, we recorded three [episodes] at a time. They were only 10 minute episodes so we could film them in a day, day and a half. We would do them every couple of months because I would release them monthly on The Patreon and OnlyFans. So we only ever had to have a couple in the queue. That went over the course of a year and a half of production and then release. And then season two. We got the order from Dekkoo in January, and they wanted us to deliver it by June. So that meant I had to write the episodes in three weeks. So I wrote six half hour episodes in three weeks, did the casting, got the crew, booked the venues. We rolled cameras March 10th, just wrapped March 21st. So this was Fast and Furious. This whole year is flying by because the only thing I'm doing is Danny. It's Fast and Furious. It's looking good.
Who and what inspires you?
Creatively, I think that they say write what you know, and the best things I have ever done are things that are born out of my personal life. I'm a recording artist. My music is about my emotions in my life and my story. My web series history was about a particular time in my romantic life different from Danny. It was more dramatic, more sincere. Danny was laced with the dating life in post pandemic, existential dread, midlife crisis period. So it lent itself more to comedy. But there are times when I'm out on the town or out on a date or doing something. I interact with someone in the world, and my brain goes, this is a story; write this down. This is a thing. There are many dates that turn into character studies; the date is not going well, and I decided I'm going to make something from it.
What's the most valuable thing you've learned during the production process?
Everything works out. Don't stress the small stuff. I have been doing this far too long. Venues drop out, actors don't show, equipment breaks, things don't go the way that you plan, but almost every single time, whatever we had to do to fix it, it ended up being better than what was planned in the first place. So I really had a sense of zen that I had never had on another production about this one because things would happen, and it just be like, all right, we got to deal with it. So let's deal with it. And I have really learned to just roll with the punches and trust that it'll all work out.
There will be a season two. What do you anticipate that to cover?
So season two. They are now half hour episodes. There are six episodes. They're coming in the fall exclusively to Dekkoo. They carry the heart of season one in that. Every episode has a new date that tackles a different subject or a different kind of person. But there's a through line story that includes another lead character, which I won't dish on too much. You get more of a connected story of Danny's progress in romance. Let's just say sometimes things pop out of nowhere. Danny is in season one, he's on the hunt, and season two kind of shows you that sometimes the hunt finds you.
Who's your dream guest star? And why?
Dream guest star? I am a huge fan of stand up comedy, so I think there's a lot of opportunity for Danny's personal life outside of his dating. And I would like to see him have a Michelle Bau, Nikki Glaser fabulous female comedian be someone to check him and his craziness. I think that would be a lot of fun. Yeah, a female comedienne, I think, would add some spice to the show.
What can audiences expect from watching Danny Will Die Alone?
They can expect to be triggered. The show does not pull any punches. Danny has a very specific point of view. He is incredibly judgmental. I would consider him to be the mirror universe, evil version of David Schitt from Schitt's Creek. He is a bit unhinged. So you will find yourself being frustrated with him in recognizing some of his dating situations. You will find yourself angry with him for being a jerk. I expect however you feel about how he deals with things and what his opinions are, they will at least be very familiar.
Is dating in New York City really? Is it as difficult as non New Yorkers say it is? Why or why not?
There's a lot of opinions. I only know my personal story. I know that it is far more difficult now than it ever was. I don't know if that's because of app culture. I don't know if that's because of the post pandemic world. I don't know if that's because of the culture. I can't really attribute what it is, but I would say the prevalence of what I'm going to call but what people might not call, sort of non-traditional relationship styles has made people who are interested in traditional relationship styles, especially in New York, very difficult to find like minded people. If you don't want to date a couple, if you don't want to have three boyfriends at once, if you don't wanna have sex with everybody, if you want to find a monogamous committed partner for something long term, the pickings are slim out here in New York.
What's your most and least favorite thing about dating?
My least favorite thing is just with anything. It's a numbers game. So, just a series of disappointments, I'll go on maybe six dates in a month. Two go well, one goes really well, and then Peter's out. The amount of people who say that they're really interested in a long term relationship, and then when one presents itself, it's like, oh, wait, never mind. I don't think I'm ready and say, "well, then why did we, why did we spend two months together? What are we doing?" The time wasted in the series of rejections is the most difficult, and it can make you feel like, is there anybody, is there anything, do I have to move? The best thing is if I would not have had the last five years of dating misadventures, I would not have my first produced show. It has given me the greatest career boost I've ever had. So I can't complain.
What do you look for in a potential partner?
I'll tell you what's in my app bio. I like someone. I am an energy chameleon, which means that I will reverse the energy that the person brings. I will balance. I'll never fight you. So if you're a shy, reserved, thoughtful, quiet, introverted person, I'll be a bit more bubbly and fun. If you're a very loud take up space in the room, center of attention person, I'll fade into the background. I don't like to fade into the background. So I prefer someone kind of an academic type. I'm a bit more reserved, a bit more introverted, a bit of a homebody. I am an introvert, someone who wants to nest. As you will learn from Danny, he has a very high libido. So there's that too.
How close do you think you are to finding the one?
[Laugh] You know what? I had a really great relationship. It was six months. It was a wonderful six months. We parted on great terms. It just didn't work out for, for reasons that weren't about us. There are other things in life that happened. It showed up out of nowhere. I went on a date, and it was just, I just felt the feeling, and I know what the feeling feels like. So I don't waste time if it's not there. I don't go on a second date. I know what it is. I know what it is and I felt it with him, and that was a year ago. It's not a matter of being close. It's just knowing that it is out there, and you just got to put yourself out there, and I can't control when it shows up, but I'm mature and secure enough now to recognize it when I see it.
Is there anything else you want to add?
Definitely. Check out Danny on Dekkoo. It premieres May 16th. You can get season two in the fall. If you would like to support me, everything is in my Instagram bio at Jack Tracy Official, and you can support me on Patreon. You can support me on OnlyFans. I'm a recording artist, and I release music videos and music. You can check me out. Everything's there. We're independent artists, and we need your support. So please don't be afraid to come help us out.
Where can we find your music and your podcast?
Music. My recording artist name is Jack Tracy. That's available on Spotify, Apple, Tidal, and everywhere you get music. As far as the podcast, they're no longer ongoing, but you can find them on all major podcast channels. There's Dying Alone Together. I'm a huge Star Trek nerd. So there's Star Trek Durations. It's a Star Trek podcast I've been doing. There's an audio drama I did a few years ago called Community that follows a mass shooting at a Queer space. It's a drama, and there's a disclaimer at the beginning that it's a hard listen. So be prepared if you check into that.
Thank you for taking the time out of your busy schedule to be interviewed! You're touring your one man show Middle Age Ingenue. Tell me about the show.
The show is about “Jeff’s search for meaning”. I know the phrase is actually “Man’s search for meaning”, but like… come on. We’ll just go with Jeff, amiright? Now, I realize that no one wants to watch a show about how I love believing in stuff, so as a gift to the audience, I will tell them three stories about a**holes. Not metaphorical ones. Literal, human, anatomical buttholes. I have three stories about buttholes and none of them leads to sex which is both impressive and humiliating.
Describe the process of preparing for the show.
I come from an improv background (I started at the Upright Citizens Brigade Theatre), so I write my show by walking around my apartment and talking into my phone. I just start with a theme and then think of all of the stories I have about that theme. It’s always too long. They say to “kill your darlings” and after I get lots of stuff down on paper, I become a serial killer honey. All those darlings are murdered! I work with my director, Laurie Woolery and she helps me find themes and then tells me when the jokes are lame. I know its hard to believe, but sometimes my jokes aren’t great. Don’t worry though! I have polished it pre-Minneapolis!
What are the most notable challenges you faced during the production?
We didn’t have many challenges in putting up this show other than the challenge of… you know… writing!
What's your memorable part of the production stage?
When I did the show in Chicago, the audience was so wonderful and when I talked about how I used to work in a bath house, one sweet gay guy clapped so hard, but no one else did. I loved his vulnerability, so I ki-ki’d all night with that queen cause I loved that she put herself out there hunny!
Middle Age Ingenue sold out in some cities. How does it feel knowing that your show is reaching so many audiences?
I know the audiences are coming out because they have seen the show and like the show, so I am just happy that the tone of my comedy and the tone of the HBO show cross over enough to keep people happy! I just love that people are laughing (and I also love that I have enough people who come out so I can actually do the show and have a great time with each other!).
What's your standout audience reaction?
People have been so nice! I had 6 shows in NYC and a young person came up to me crying. This is not necessarily the reaction I was going for, but I loved that they were moved and liked the show. Most people laugh – I swear! But this one person cried, so they stood out.
What should audiences expect from watching Middle Age Ingenue?
People should expect to laugh! It’s a fun night out where we talk about how life is different than you expect it to be sometimes, but it doesn’t mean we can’t laugh about it.
Describe how you juggle touring Middle Age Ingenue and filming Somebody Somewhere (HBO)?
The tour is a mini-tour for a reason. We are shooting the third season of Somebody Somewhere right now, but I am taking time out to do a few shows on the way to shooting and on the way home from it as well! Minneapolis was so close to Chicago where we shoot the show, so I had to swing over. I am trying so hard not to say the word “Uffda” right now. Do you admire my restraint?
Middle Age Ingenue and Somebody Somewhere explore the midlife years. Do you transfer any inspiration from Somebody Somewhere onto Middle Age Ingenue? If so, how?
When I was cast in Somebody Somewhere, I thought the show was written for me. The character of Joel is very similar to who I am in real life. The writers have repeatedly told me that they did not write the role for me. Repeatedly. So, I guess it’s just fate that the show and my own personal voice cross over. If you like the show, come to “Middle Aged Ingenue”. It’s cutie.
Both Somebody Somewhere and Middle Age Ingenue are receiving critical acclaim. Have you started practicing your Emmy and Tony winning speeches? If so, who will you likely thank, and what will you likely say?
In a word? No. These shows don’t win statues – just hearts! Is that incredibly cheesy? Yes. And yet, I stand by it.
You have an outstanding resume! Your resume includes Broadway, TV, and films. Which show is your most memorable and why?
Most people know me from Somebody Somewhere, but I also get recognized a lot for playing the serial killer in American Horror Story: NYC. I am a lot like Joel, but I am EXACTLY like Mr. Whitely. Just kidding! Or am I?
On the stage, my favorite role has been playing “The Lamb” in Silence which was a musical version of The Silence of the Lambs. Don’t worry, it was supposed to be funny. I played everyone from the movie that you don’t remember. Oh, I also played the guy who masturbated on Clarice when she first meets Lecter, so you might remember him. Remember when you asked me if I rehearsed a TONY speech? This is the kind of classy theatre I do.
Is there anything else you'd like to add?
The show is about hope and also it is funny. I just want people to have a great time. I think of myself as a hostess and the audience as a really big dinner party. Except I won’t feed you. Hm. Is this metaphor too complicated? I don’t know. It’s funny! Come!
Emmy and Grammy nominee Randy Rainbow performed his comedy satire Randy Rainbow for President at the State Theater on Friday, March 1. Randy Rainbow is an online sensation because of his hilarious political satirical videos.
Randy Rainbow for President included singing, videos, news clips, a little bit of dancing, and lots of camp humor. Rainbow delivered what he's known for doing online, which is providing comedy relief for those who are feeling stressed because of the future being uncertain. His signature comedy relief included parodying famous Broadway songs that direct towards political figures and acting out a presidential run. Most of the time, not every time, he added a gay twist to his jokes. Rainbow pretended to run for president. During which, he promised to make the country gay.
His visit to Minneapolis was no exception. He never failed to deliver the comic relief that many audience members appeared to need, which relates to the upcoming election.
This show tunes influence was displayed by his Broadway style voice and his minimal choreography. His choreography was limited to simple walking and hand/ arm gestures. He didn't need to include more choreography than he did because his vocals alone projected the show tunes theme he sought to deliver. The background videos acted as the choreography.
His satirical show gave audience members some hope for a brighter future. Even though the president run a comedy act, Rainbow made the audience wish it was a real one.
Thank you so much for taking the time out of your busy schedule! Tell me about the changes made with the remodeling.
There were several intentions of the remodel one was to get rid of the distinction between Eagle and Bolt. It is one bar with two great spaces. So, Part of it was rebranding what we have now, just have The Eagle | MPLS: original Eagle side and new Eagle side. We intentionally didn't rename it because we wanted to eliminate that distinction. The other thing was to make it a more usable space. The challenges with the original design were the bar being in the middle. [It] really took up space, made it hard to order drinks, [and] made it hard for people to gain access from the street side of the bar. At busy events, there was less room for gathering, and now, there is a much better flow to the space to allow for bigger events, better circulation during events, and better drink services.
When did you decide, and what made you decide to do that?
After approximately a year of owning the bar and seeing how it functioned, it seemed important to do prior to the upcoming busy Summer season to provide a better usage or functionality than it had before. That's how and why I decided to do it.
What's new about The Eagle now that remodeling has been completed?
If you haven't seen it, the bar is completely relocated to one side of the wall allowing for much wider space upon entry. It allows for three bartenders to work efficiently out the service walls rather than two as had been previously done. It allows more dance floor space. It allows more common space for gathering. We've also made improvements to the lighting, improvements to the sound system, and just overall clearing up of design and decor.
What do you hope to accomplish now that the remodeling has been completed?
I hope that we can continue to provide a safe space for the LGBTQI+ community to serve as a meeting and gathering space for all types of events.
What should customers expect upon walking in there?
Better flow, easier service, and a fresh new look.
One more question I have for you is... Will you please confirm that you still have the iconic license plates, and if you do, where are they displayed now?
So that's a throwback question. The license plates are still on end of the covered area of the patio. That's the only place, to my knowledge, they've ever been and I don't see them going anywhere.
Is there anything else you want to add with the remodeling?
Hopefully that the entire queer community and allied community sees the improvement in service time as well as functionality of both spaces as we continue to improve and grow. I want the community to know that the improvements are to better serve them.
This Summer is going to be an exciting Summer for us with one full year of new ownership under its belt. We will have some more improved Pride events. We're sponsoring and hosting some bigger events for the entire Spring, Summer, and Fall seasons that will hopefully be to the liking of all people within the LGBTQI+ spectrum.
And then off to my Oscar questions. Will you be playing the Oscars at the Eagle?
We sure will.
Excellent. What events will you be hosting during the Oscars?
We'll be doing a special edition of Sunday Show Tunes in conjunction with the Oscars.
Tell me about the show tunes.
The show tunes for the Oscars will be a specifically curated version of show tunes to accompany the Oscars with some show tunes before the show begins and intermittently throughout the viewing of the Oscars broadcast.
Lie With Me was directed by Olivier Peyon, who also directed the documentary Comment J'ai Détesté les Maths (2014). The documentary was nominated for the Cesar award for Best Documentary (French equivalent to the Oscar). Cinephobia Releasing will be releasing Lie With Me on DVD on February 15, 2024.
Author Stéphane Belcourt returns to his hometown 35 years after moving away. Initially, he intended to only promote a distillery. However, he is faced with memories of his first love Thomas. This is thanks to running into a teenager named Lucas, Thomas' son. While Lucas frequently asks questions about his father, Stéphane mentally relives his moments with Thomas that ranged from romantic to intense to erotic.
Lie With Me successfully reminds viewers that we never forget our first love. This is credited to the strong leadership of the film director Olivier Peyon. The never forgetting our first love aspect is maintained between the teenage years in 1984 to Stéphane's adulthood in present time. The switching between the two years is easy to follow, as is the overall storyline. Guillaume de Tonquédec's performance as Stéphane and the chemistry between the cast and him are the on screen highlights. Overall, Lie With Me is an outstanding piece with drama, passion, romance, and reflection.
I chat with producer Justin Ross and cast member David Hernandez about the production of the film.
What's your favorite part of the production process?
JR: This might sound trite but I sincerely love the whole process from the
creation to the rehearsals to the actual production itself. I don’t know that I
have a favorite part. You wear a little different hat, see it through a bit of a
different lens at each stage, all the while keeping the theme, the heart, the
“why are we doing this” at the top of my mind. And watching the lovely and
very talented David Hernandez sing, “Fall on Your Knees” (all puns intended,
ha) with our dancers, Jesse and Tomas, beside him...that was a favorite
too.
David, what was your favorite part of playing your character?
DH: I think the best part of it was that the role was really a parody based on who he [Sal Mineo] was. So we were able to insert a lot of humor. He was a New Yorker so I enjoyed playing around with the accent a little bit.
Your production includes Liberace numbers. How has Liberace
inspired you?
JR: Growing up, he was not really on my radar so much though I recall
watching some of his performances. Liberace made an impact on me later
in life as a talent who lived his life as he wanted, very openly and bravely.
He’s from the Midwest actually as I am (three cheers for Minnesota!) and
that is quite inspiring to me as an openly gay man...I just didn’t know that
growing up. And David Maiocco, our Liberace, is the embodiment of that
talent, showmanship and courage - he’s so, so good.
What's your favorite routine on Making the Yuletide Gay?
JR: That’s like asking which child is your favorite, for shame! Seriously, I loved
all of it. Two things I will point out: first is that Michael Airington who plays
the legendary Paul Lynde is in almost if not every scene and he was a real
trooper in keeping up the high energy for the hours it took to tape this. You
don’t see any lag in his excellent work in the actual show - what a pro. The
second is our dancers, Jesse, Tomas, Luis and Adam. They worked that
fun and sexy choreography in mere hours and help make the special really
pop.
It follows the style of Christmas themed 60s, 70s, and 80s variety
shows. Are there any variety shows that inspired the production
more than others? If so, which ones and why?
JR: The only “real” Paul Lynde holiday special (the Halloween special Paul did
in 1976) was the biggest inspiration for it I would say. Some of the Sonny
and Cher bits and others wove some of their magic into this as well.
Your production adds a gay twist.
Besides the characters included in the production, are there any LGBT figures who inspired your production? If so, which ones and why?
JR: I think all of the legendary LGBTQ figures of the past and present and our
allies like Judy Garland and many others sprinkled their magical fairy dust
over this production. Gay and humor have been hand in hand from birth,
really. I think humor is an important...weapon if you will and healing balm
both. Humor pierces ignorance and even hate.
If there is to be a Making the Yuletide Gay Part 2, which LGBT figures
would you include in that one?
JR: Good question! Off the cuff, Charles Nelson Reilly, Rock Hudson and
maybe Joan Rivers, Phyllis Diller, Elaine Stritch...
David, what was it like playing the role of Sal Mineo?
DH: I had a lot of fun with the character. It was great learning the life and career of an incredible actor gone too soon. He was really creating a name for himself and had already done such amazing work. I normally have facial hair, so I had to do a full shave because he had such a baby face. His hair was a lot thicker as well so I wore a wig so that I could come as close as possible to resemble him.
What research did you have to do to prepare for the role?
DH: Well, Wikipedia is obviously a great source to get general information from. But I also did some deeper digging so I could learn more about his life and how he grew up. I learned that his mother enrolled him in acting and dancing classes at a very early age. I was also surprised to notice that his first play was a Tennessee Williams play because I’ve done several Tennessee Williams plays in Acting Class. Obviously, his breakthrough role came with “Rebel Without a Cause”, but he had already done a lot of incredible things. I always find fascinating researching rules that I am to play because you learn so much about who the person was. As a singer, I was also surprised to find out that he too was a singer, and had much success in the pop music world.
What Sal Mineo movies and movie roles inspired your part in Making the Yuletide Gay the most? Why?
DH: Well, definitely “Rebel Without a Cause” because that was his most commercial role. But I also enjoyed researching a lot of his previous work, and the work that came after. He was an artist through and through.
What other inspirational LGBT figures do you hope to play in the future?
DH: Honestly, as a Latin queer man, any role that would shed light on an inspirational figure would be an honor. However, it would be closer to my heart to place somebody that was also Latin and queer.
You got the pleasure of working with inspiring LGBT figures such as Lady Bunny and Jackie Beat. What was it like working with the crew?
JR: It was like wrangling ornery, horny, feral cats! Totally kidding. It was
honestly a dream come true. Each of them are just phenomenal at what
they do. I wish we had a behind the scenes recording because some of the
things that each of them said to me while setting up a shot or rehearsing...
comedy gold.
DH: It was amazing! I’ve always been a huge fan of Jackie Beat. She is hilarious and has incredible vocals. But she is also very witty and smart. Lady bunny actually, was a DJ at my best friend's wedding in 2014 back in New York City. That was the first time I met her. So working with her on this project was great because I got a better sense of who she was.
What can audiences expect from watching Making the Yuletide Gay?
JR: A fantastic time with deep belly laughs. They will see top notch talent at the
top of their game, all working together. They may even learn some, well,
new terms shall we say...who knew the holidays could be so sexual! The
audience will walk away happy from a time well spent.
DH: Loads of laughs and eye candy. Shout out to the dancers, Jesse Rey and Tomas Mata! We had such a fun time learning the choreography.
What do you hope the audiences get out of watching Making the Yuletide Gay?
DH: I hope that whatever everyone is going through, they’re able to watch the show and escape for a little fun and laughs. This time of year is either really happy or really sad for some people, so I think that comedy is a Healthy way of coping.
Unfortunately, the holidays can be a rough time for some. This is particularly true for LGBT people who were rejected from their family after coming out. What message do you hope that your production sends to them?
JR: The horrific Club Q shooting in Colorado Springs happened the night before/day of the taping actually. We took a moment of silence for that, and what I said to the crowd after that moment was that the show represents a beacon of hope and light in spite of that darkness. Like Harvey Milk said, “gotta give ‘em hope” and hope is very much the core message! Know too
that family is not defined only by those persons who surrounded you when you were born. Family is chosen and found in our friends, colleagues and community. Even in the times where it seems you are all alone, you are not. I am reminded too of some courageous wisdom that helped me in my own coming out: “better to be yourself, hard as that may sometimes be,
than to live a life as someone you are not.” We hope that the humor and joy found in our little show transcends doubt, fear, loss, and pain and maybe even inspires a whole generation who are not as familiar with Paul Lynde or Tab Hunter, etc.
DH: I hope that they can understand that while you can’t control what family you were born into, you do have the control to choose your family. That chosen family can be thicker than blood.
What's your favorite thing about the holidays?
JR: I like the spirit of giving and receiving, and no, that is not a gay pun! I love
the colors and decorations, the food, the tree, the menorah, all of it. This
holiday season at the end of the year is also a time of reflection and
perhaps an opportunity to look to the year ahead as well.
What are you doing for the holidays this year?
JR: I will be home here in Las Vegas. Probably have several exchanges with
friends and family (I am just so fortunate to be surrounded by wonderful
people who love and support me, honestly). Eat something delicious.
Watch a movie. Listen to a podcast as I walk around the city. Simple and
joyous is the goal.
DH: I will be staying home and relaxing. Growing up in a divorced family, my entire life I’ve always been pulled in two different directions. So now, as an adult, I can make my own choices. This year my choice is to totally relax, stress-free, and prepare for 2024.
Is there anything else you want to add?
DH: My Christmas album “Christmas in California” is available on all streaming platforms and includes an original song I wrote called “ My Winter Wonderland”. That music video is also available on YouTube.
This was a simple, yet intimate event that included a dedication, his life story, a Q&A, and his poetry about his struggles with drug and alcohol addiction.
He then proceeded with his life story, which begins with him at age 15 when he tried alcohol for the first time. At age 21, he tried meth for the first time and immediately got addicted. He was homeless for many years. He went into treatment a few times before finding sobriety in 2022.
The reading was unrehearsed and full of imperfections. The unrehearsed and imperfect approach worked better than rehearsed because they reminded the audience that he's human. This approach made the event raw and real by speaking from the heart rather than words already in his head. It felt conversational.
Perra kept the reading simple. He sat on a chair behind the table. He sat casually like he was at home: relaxed, legs stretched out to the side, and slouched. He read directly from the book while maintaining minimal eye contact with the audience. The casualness makes his stage presence feel more genuine.
He shared the writing process of a few poems. These few times were enough for audiences to receive a scope of the book writing process. For instance, Perra shared when his drug use accelerated in "July 7, 2022", when he felt hopeless in "January 6, 2019", and when a relationship ended in "August 23, 2019".
Perra spoke tenderly. He never raised his voice. He never spoke aggressively. The only harsh language he used was from his poetry. His voice sounded heartfelt. Speaking aggressively would have likely backfired.
These poems explored more than just addiction. They also explored love, relationships, and nature. The only organization of the poem is based on the date they were written, like in the book. The order in which he read them ranged from earliest to latest. This helps acknowledge that, despite the struggles with addiction, there is beauty in this world.
Aaron Joshua Perra gave the audience something that's missing in the book reading world. That's heart. The imperfections from Aaron Joshua Perra are largely to credit for making this reading inspiring, powerful, raw, and real. Overall, this reading is a breath of fresh air.
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